That's right. I don't. Most seniors, especially by the end of the spring semester, want to get the hell out of college. They want to go home, see their dog or cat, family and friends, move onto bigger and better things. Most seniors are ready to never step foot in a classroom again, stay up all night in the library, or write an essay that's due at 11:59 p.m. But, not everyone wants to or is ready for this, including me.
But why, you may ask, wouldn't you want to finally be free of college's clutches? Well, let me break it down.
1. The future is unknown
And it's scary. The biggest concern is what is the next year going to be? What about the year after that? It will be my first time out of a school setting. For the last several years, I have gotten up almost every day and gone to school. The last four years especially, I knew what it was going to be like because I planned it. I picked my school schedule out, decided what clubs I wanted to be in, what activities I wanted to be a part of, and I knew I would be doing the same thing the next year. For once, I have no idea what it's going to be like in September. I won't be moving in, I won't have a schedule I've known, and I won't be seeing people I've met before.
Will I have a real job by then? Will I still be in contact with my college friends? Will I ever stay in contact with my professors? I have no idea and frankly, that's petrifying. Sure, the future is bright, but I have no idea what's happening in it.
2. The loans
If you're like me and didn't work up enough money to pay for your college career, chances are you've taken out some loans. Big ones. In less than a year, all graduating seniors are going to have to start paying them back. The "free" ride is over and now it's time to seriously save up. For those who haven't worked before, you're in for a great time (not really). For those of us who simply don't make enough still, loans are gonna be really tough.
On top of needing money for food, rent, car payments, car insurance, phone bills, credit card bills, anything, we're gonna need more money to pay off our loans month by month for however many years. Of course, this means stepping it up and really putting in that overtime, but also, let's be honest here: our social lives are going down the drain with our money. The new budget isn't going to allow that $30 worth of late night food but will go straight to repaying that loan.
3. There are still classes I want to take
One of the worst things about college is that sure there are electives, but you have to get through all the required stuff first. That being said, there are still a bunch of electives I would've loved to take. I could've taken creative writing classes, learned photography, or even learn the basics of a new language. But you only have a number of years to stay in school, and your core subjects and required major classes obviously come first. And even you can squeeze one in on top, do you actually have time for that extra class? Chances are no, not really. So I do wish I had more time to really take a class for fun, or simply classes I would've loved to sit down and learn in.
Same can be said with professors. There were always great professors that I would've loved to take a class with but never was able to.
4. I will no longer be with people like me
Let's face it, college kids are a whole different kind of people. You're around people mostly the same age, doing the same things, and you can relate to them. All of us are similar in some kind of way, whether we hate a certain class or professor, complain about how the buses run or how we got screwed over in our housing for next year, or agree about how a certain food place is the best. We're all in a similar spot in our lives in college and it simply won't be the same when we leave.
As for my college friends, will I really ever see them again?
5. The college life
Similiar to being surrounded by people like you, there's also just the college life in general. Eating greasy food in the middle of the night, going to parties on the weekends, study dates, clubs and even going to class. College life is fun when you're not cramming for an exam. Sit under a tree and read a book, express yourself at open mics, eat out whenever you want because things are open later, the dorming experience. Everything is simply a different lifestyle that I'm going to miss. I can't just go anywhere to sit and read a book for the day like I can here.
6. I'll miss my professors
If you've ever had a class you've loved with an amazing and inspirational professor that you bonded with, you'll understand this point. Not everyone has had great professors, I can name some that I would never recommend in a million years, but there's always that one professor who stands out and changes you. Whatever professor had you thinking great ideas is the one you would love to spend office hours with. Being on campus gave you the opportunity to make friends with that professor and take other classes with them. Leaving school means you probably won't be seeing them again. But hey, maybe you can add them on LinkedIn?
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Overall, entering the adult world is scary. As much as it is exciting, it's unknown. I'm going to miss tiny experiences, the college life, my friends, and even learning. Graduation is a week away and I'm simply not ready to leave.