I have never really been prepared for anything life had to offer (has to offer, too) for me; therefore, I am not confident about this whole growing-up charade. Many people my age have had a plethora of meltdowns, and I know from experience that I like to crawl into my cave, my room, and binge watch "Grey's Anatomy" (which is my therapy) to avoid doing anything productive. Quite frankly, I don't know where to begin in most places. Everyone is on the search and hunt for their adulthood.
Adulthood is so hard. Life itself throws many obstacles and curveballs in everyone's way, and has left me with too little to say about anything and everything.
My favorite line right now is, "I don't know!" I am in a never-ending state of uncertainty about a great many things that are soon to be arriving in the future (for most everyone, including myself).
People tend to ask questions about your intentions for your own future and about your plans for specific situations, and these questions are triggers, people. I get triggered because I have absolutely no clue what I am doing with my life. I have no general idea as to what my plans are at all, or will be.
I don't know the following (plus more):
...I don't know if I even grasp the basic fundamentals of being a functioning adult.
...I don't know what I am going to do with college, but hey, it's a start.
...No, Becky, I don't know what I am going to do with my career, let alone planning a major or future for myself. (I really don't know a Becky, but if I did, that's what I'd say)
...I don't know how to adult at all...taxes, insurance, time management, and following deadlines.
All in all, I know enough to get by for now, like how to budget or write a check and what not... but anything that requires credit statements or loans and how to do such and such, it is far beyond my qualifications.
I am horrible at this whole adulting thing. For anyone out there not sure about anything, just know that it is perfectly normal to not know anything right now. For those that continue to question... stop it. Kidding. Adults, please stick by us and guide us when we don't know how to follow a schedule or a daily plan, we will try not to be triggered.
