My fear of becoming old becomes immense each time I see someone who is elderly struggling to even lift a spoon up to their mouth while to them the spoon so heavy that they shake as if they were lifting a fire truck off the ground with their bare hands. It is crazy, we all came into this world as babies but some of us will leave this earth as babies again but grown, old, wrinkly, and weak. When we reach a certain age, we become to walk slowly, start aging, are skin starts to become looser and more looser as the day go by. Our bones tend to easily break a lot easier if we step on a piece of Lego that would probably require us to go the hospital and likely that broken bone will never be the same as long we are breathing; that there scare me as much someone about to lose their virginity.
Yes, I know, I am far from the age where I will start walking very slow, with my skin as wrinkled as a button-up shirt on laundry day but truthfully, I can not stop to think about it. Something can only distract for a little until I start thinking of me one day not being strong as I am now. For example, I believe I am strong enough to defend myself if someone was to break into my home but if I was around 80 or 90 years old, let’s be real, I will not be able to defend myself as I was able to if I was at a young age. The fast reflective that I have right now soon will not be fast as it once uses to be. My typing speed right now as I am writing this article is great right now but soon it will take me 10 minutes to probably even write a sentence. Just imagine, all that you do quickly in a job, school, or whatever, soon will take you a couple hours to do because your capacity is not what it use to be.
I constantly tell the people I adore with my heart, that I never want to get old, that I want to die around the age when I start just losing my necessary skills to survive on my own. I do not want to depend on anyone for everything I once did on my own without any mishaps. God knows, if my future family members do not take care of me when I am old and no longer can fend for myself, I am going to be basically screwed. Yes, I know there are nursing homes if something happens but I do not believe in those things. In my culture, family takes care of family, we protect our own.