All my life I strived to be the perfect girl. I strived to be everyone's friend. I wanted to follow the latest trends and be in the popular crowd. However, I always struggled with having that one best friend. Everyone has that one person they've known since birth and have stuck with them forever. I never had someone like that. Coming to college it was a fresh start for me. This year I found some amazing friends. But, I had to go through some bad ones to find the real ones.
To the girl that didn't want to be friends,
There are always going to be people out there that don't like you. There are always going to be people that disagree with you. There are always going to be the one that has something bad to say about you every time. But, that isn't something that's going to bring me down. Because of this, I realized who my true friends are. Freshman year has taught me a lot. Friends come and go, but best friends stay forever.
When someone doesn't want to be around you, you don't push it. You don't fight someone that doesn't like you. If they don't want to be your friend then you don't need to fight it. And that's what I did with you. There's no need to cause more problems by fighting over to be friends or not. If someone doesn't respect you or like you then let them go.
You said we were best friends.
But, not soon after said you didn't want to be friends or that we weren't that close to begin with. I don't understand how you can be best friends with someone and then drop them like that. That's not true friendship then. I thought that this is what my life was, losing friends that I confided in. But, I realized shortly after that this isn't what I needed. I need friends that will respect me and always be there for me and not drop me like a fly.
You said goodbye and I let you.
I realized that I didn't need someone that would say goodbye just like that. If you didn't want to be in my life, then I didn't need you there and I was okay with this. By saying goodbye to you and our friendship I opened up room for so many better friends. I found my true friends where I belonged. I was able to hang out with people without worrying if you would get mad that I was with them. Or that I wasn't making enough time for you. You were like the clingy boyfriend. And I was able to be with other people. I didn't have to worry about what drama was going on or people you were talking shit about or you not wanting to be my friend. I'm so happy with the people I have beside me now that I'm okay with not having you in my life.
I ended freshman year on a good note.
I ended it happy. And I cannot wait to come back in August. I cannot wait to see my friends in three months and do all the fun things we planned. I cannot wait to make even more friends and meet so many new people, but not once will I look back. I am thankful for the memories we will always share, but I am not thankful for the drama that was made. I am thankful for everything that happened this year because I learned so much. And the most important thing I learned was that if someone doesn't want to be a part of your life you let them go. Because there are so many more people out there. And right now I have some pretty amazing people that have my back. So thank you for everything.
Love,
Your ex-best friend
