What is wrong with me? I know I'm not a catch. I get that I'm not the ideal choice, but I am worth a chance.

I see so many women who are ogled and a hand picked. I can't even compare.

I'm the chunky girl with a sassy attitude. I'm the girl all the guys want to be friends with, and that's all. Just friends.

I'm not just sassy and fat, I'm also compassionate and selfless.

I wish for once I could be the center of attention. One time I would just love to be the one chosen and not left to her own.

I love me for who I am. Sure I'd love to lose a few pounds, hell who wouldn't. My weight also doesn't define me. It doesn't make me "ugly", it makes me human.

I'm not the bubbly girl who demands attention when she walks into a room. I'm the girl who stays to herself. That's my way of protecting myself. I put a guard up so that if anything happens, I'm safe. Does that in essence make me unapproachable? I guess so. That doesn't mean I wouldn't jump for joy for just a touch of contemplation.

No I don't have my life figured out. I'm barely breathing while trying to live. I try to enjoy being the individual I've become. Honestly I'm not sure where I'm even going. All I can say with certainty is that I will be who I was destined to be.

I get that you want someone who as rich in beauty as she is in confidence. I don't even know how to be confident anymore. I'm so certain of the opinion of others that I don't even give you a chance to tear me down, I do it myself. Who needs a terrible bully, when you turn yourself into your own worst enemy.

I'll never ever forget how high school terrorized me. It's not easy being the girl people used as an insult when they said you liked her. I never let them know it bothered me, but it's not an easy feeling to shake. So began the process of my self loathing.

To this day I'm trying to rebuild myself. I think I'm doing pretty well if I say so myself. I'm stronger than ever. I have started building myself up once a day. Even if I don't believe it now, one day I will. I encourage myself to enjoy me as a person. I've decided to act how I feel and if people can't appreciate that, then they can walk on. If they aren't worth your time, don't give them any. If you take anything away from this, let it be that you are worth it. You are worth more than what someone thinks of you.

If you feel as if no one loves you, know that I do. Everyone deserves to feel loved and appreciated. Just know that there is someone out there who would die for you.

If you feel hopeless, here's a number to call: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline toll-free at 800-273-8255.