This is a letter written to my dear ex-best friend. There are a couple of you out there, so bear with me. At one point in time, you were my favorite person in the world. Hanging out with you and talking to you on a daily basis was everything I looked forward to when I woke up in the morning. You were my person. You were the Meredith to my Christina. Being able to laugh with you over the most random things was amazing, and that was what bonded us together more. I admired you in every single way, shape, and form. You were my best friend. I had never enjoyed any moment more in my life than the moments when we were talking about boys, drama, or even laughing until we were crying.
Those were the moments that made me proud to be your best friend. You were the person I went to for everything. You were my shoulder to cry on, the one who would threaten to beat any boy up if he broke my heart, the one I could stay up with until the early hours of the morning, the one that I could go to Walmart with at 4 AM just to get chocolate, and the one I could count on no matter what. Sadly, that all eventually came to an end. Something tore us apart. Maybe it was neither of our faults or maybe it was both of our faults. I'm not sure. I won't subject you to the blame though. You deserve better than that. We both do. We fought hard for our friendship to last, and both you and I know that neither of us could make it work. However, I did not write this to dwell on the past or to go over all of the "what could have been's". I wrote this as a closure for the both of us.
There are still a lot of unanswered questions from the both of us, but here is what's important and what matters most: we both have people. We have other people in our lives that are there for us. No, they don't exactly fill the hole that is left from when you left, but they are there so I can still laugh without you. They are here for me to smile when I am sad, and they are my shoulder to cry on now. I can't explain to you how much I miss you and how much I will always wish you were still my person, but I have different best friends now. They are my people. You will never be replaced, but I have found out that I don't need your shoulder to cry on, or your tears from laughing so much. I have friends that I can laugh until I cry with now, and I have a new shoulder to cry on.
I will never forget you or our memories. I will always hold you and our whole friendship very closely to my heart, but I will not fret or be discouraged by our friendship that we couldn't save, because we tried our best. I will never delete the pictures on my phone of us because those were the times when we were happiest together. Those were the times I will hold onto forever. Farewell to my ex-best friend. I hope you are happy and well. I will always love you, and I hope the best for you and your future. I hope you don't forget me and all of the memories we have together, for I never will.
