Dear You,
It has been about five months since we last spoke and I would be lying if I said I haven’t thought about you once during this time that’s passed. Whenever I hear the old Justin Bieber song we used to sing at the top of our lungs, not to mention extremely off-key, as we drove down Western Avenue or whenever I eat watermelon with some chili powder sprinkled on it, you always cross my thoughts.
I found myself replaying the last day we hung out and thinking about the texts we exchanged the days leading up to it. Did I say something wrong? Did I do something that offended you? For weeks I stressed over this until I realized the issue. Our lives are headed in different directions.
Thinking about it, I don't know who you are anymore and you don't know who I am. You are someone that I knew in the past. You've been in my life since middle school, and it's weird thinking that you aren't anymore. It used to sting when people would ask me how you were doing because I could never answer that question, and I was happy when people finally stopped asking. The selfish side of me hoped that if someone asked you how I was, you'd feel that same sting.
At the end of the day, despite the fact that you dropped from my life faster than Kim Kardashian divorced Kris Humphries, I am not bitter towards you. Looking back, maybe a month or so ago, I was upset and hurt, but now I realize I should thank you. Thank you for making me a stronger person by making me realize that I needed to move on from the friendship. Thank you for making me realize I'm mature enough to make that decision, for making me recognize I am resilient enough not to go crawling after you. You probably have no idea, but you taught me some valuable lessons. I learned that chili powder on fruit makes it taste bomb and that it was okay to ask my parents to extend my curfew every once in a while. Most importantly though thank you for helping me learn to not to give a second thought about what people thought of me, as well as helping me build the self-confidence that I lacked.
I wish that I could say all of these things to you face-to-face. I thought that when we said we were best friends, that we would stay that way. However, life has a funny way of working out. Know that if you ever need help, I am only a phone call away. If you happen to be reading this, please know that I mean all of this in the most genuine way. From the bottom of my heart, I hope that you are truly happy and that you are not selling yourself short. I hope you can realize that you are capable of doing amazing things.
Sincerely,
Me
