Dear Sperm Donor,

Thank you. Thank you so much for leaving me and making my amazing mother and I do this on our own. I know that you want me to call you father, but that is not the 'F' word that I was thinking of.

My father was never around, he never had the decency to stick around while I was growing up, but let's face it, he thought that his child support checks were just enough. But I am sure that he never thought that him not being in my life would make me grow up to be the woman that I am. I am a strong, independent, woman that never grew up depending on a man.

Now before you start to judge me and saying that I should give my father a chance, I did.

Around Christmas of 2015, I met my father for the first time. I was 17 at the time and I had so many emotions. When I was 12 my father asked me if we could have a DNA test, I obviously said no. But when he decided that he wanted to step up and be the father that he thought he could be, I welcomed him with open arms. That was a big mistake. My father decided that he did not want anything to do with me.

So at this point, let's just call him a sperm donor.

I think that the fathers who have made the choice to not be around their children are the lowest of the low. I never had a man in my life to warn me about how stupid guys were. But he did teach me that every man that I met would end up hurting me.

But yes, I forgive you. I forgive you for hurting me and for letting me believe that one day we would have a strong relationship. I understand that you have another family and that we live in different states. I have learned to never let you back into my life, no matter how bad you want to be in it.

One good thing that came out of my awful relationship with my father is the amazing relationship that I have with my brother. I could not ask for a better brother/best friend. Him and I can go days without talking but once we do talk, it is like we never even stopped. I never thought that the man who could not be there for me would help create a man that I could call one of my best friends.

I can say that my mother has taken the place of my father and she is a dynamic duo within herself.

I could not have made it through my life without my amazing mother by my side. She had to raise me on her own and I praise her everyday for it. I know that sometimes I may seem unappreciative at times, but words will never describe how much I love her. So thank you to my mother for being there for me.

I would not be where I was if I had my father here, so I thank him for that. Thank you for being the best sperm donor there ever was.