One minute here, the next minute gone. We have been through it all and honestly I thought I had everything I needed. The perfect life; the perfect best friend, the perfect family and the perfect college I would soon be attending in the fall. Then all of a sudden things started changing faster than the seasons.
Where did it go? The endless hours of texting about the boys we thought were so dreamy and the countless days where you would spend at my house making stupid memories that would be burned in my brain forever. All the nights we spent planning our outfits for spirit week and all the days we would wish away when things weren’t going right, soon to find out that we would wish for these days back when it was all said and done.
Being friends with someone for so long makes you feel like a part of you is missing when they become absent from your life while still sitting next to you in your least favorite class. I miss having all the teachers know we went hand in hand like dumb and dumber because we did indeed make some really dumb decisions. I miss the days that we planned our next scheme for revenge because that is what we did best and we did it best when we were together. I am sorry that I let things get to the point where we couldn’t fix them. I continue to apologize that all the major milestones we have include pictures of both of us but neither of us can bring ourselves to delete them. BUT I am not sorry that I call someone else my best friend and I am not sorry that the memories I have made with them replaced the smallest memories of you. I am not sorry I moved on and continue to better myself and focus on my needs.
Please understand that I have moved on to bigger things and learning how to love myself and to fully understand what everyone is going through right in the beginning because with you, I was always surprised when I turned a new page in your book. Understand that every day you didn’t speak to me was another day that was left to wonder what I did wrong and in my case, I only wanted the best for you. Please acknowledge the fact that all my new friends at college know what I’ve been through because those long nights when I wish I could text you, they stopped me.
To the new girl you call your best friend, make sure she knows about me and how we were there for each other through it all; the break ups, the lovers and the long nights of pointless conversations. Make sure she knows that you love that Italian restaurant on Genesse Street and that you would take a day in your sweats watching movies rather than going to a party but you do enjoy a good time every now and then. Make sure she takes you to country concerts because those are your favorite but make sure she never stops putting in effort because once that stops she will just be another past chapter in your book of life.
Look where we ended up now. 345 miles away and a single text was made on winter break in the past 7 months. Everything has changed for the better and some for the worse. Always remember that I was there for everything and I still will be there if you need some support or a pat on the back. Till’ the end.
Love Always,
A past chapter in your book
