To the person I hate so much that I love,

Please tell me how perfect your life is, how smoothly its going. Secretly, I would also be fine with things not being so good in your life because sometimes I think you need a good slap by reality. I would be heartbroken if something actually went wrong in your life, but hearing about your perfect world does tend to annoy me. You might be thinking it has been a while since we have talked and that is because sometimes I really hate how great things are going in your life. I know it's selfish, but I struggle so often and I feel like I can't even ask your advice because you've never actually had trouble with anything. I hate that you have such good luck and seem to breeze by so easily in life.

You know that thing that you do that annoys me? Well, you should stop doing it. But, if you quit, I would miss it too much, unfortunately. You know how I spend so much time sighing in annoyance? It is because so many things that you do annoy me, yet somehow I keep letting you be a part of my life. I sigh because I give you advice and you do the opposite. I sigh because you constantly tell me how swamped you are but you've never really been challenged.

Sometimes you might notice that I have to take a step back and reevaluate my life. I have to remind myself not to lose my cool with you. During this time I often question why we are friends and why I keep you in my life. I remind myself of the good times we have had together and all of the good qualities that you have that I just can't get enough of.

I like to believe it would be easy to kick you out of my life. I often debate ignoring your text messages. You stress me out so much and I wonder if cutting you off would allow me to find some relief. I know it wouldn't, though. I love you too much to ever actually abandon our friendship.

Even though I do get annoyed with you, it is because I have such high hopes for you. Just know that when we first became friends, nothing you did was annoying to me. I was blinded by love and thought everything you did was amazing. I have grown to know you better though and I can see your full potential. It stresses me out (and annoys me) that you continuously sell yourself short. You could be so much more than you're attempting to be. You are worth so much more than you give yourself credit for. I love you so much that I have set expectations for you and you somehow always manage to fall short of them. You are my biggest annoyance, but also my best friend.

Can't live with you, would definitely die without you.