Dear Ovarian Cancer,
You might have tried to attack the strongest person in the world but you will lose this fight. When you first came into my moms life I was terrified. Scared of what you might do to my mom. I'll never forget the day it all started. My mom had her normal bloating in her stomach but it had been terrible for her that day. She was in so much pain I asked her if I could bring her to the emergency room and she refused. Stubborn woman. The next day she went to the doctors and got a cat scan the same day. we found out it was a over sized mass but I had so much faith that it wasn't cancer.
Everything happened so fast. She was scheduled for surgery in a week and would be most likely hospitalized for a week to remove the mass. The day of her surgery I remember leaving for work and hugging her and feeling my heart sank in my chest. The strongest woman I ever know was about to be in the hospital. Later that evening I visited you and so much pain was in my heart when I saw you. you were barely conscious and didn't say much. I went home that night with my best friend and cried my heart out for you.
When you came home it was the best thing in the world. You were so hopeful and happy to be home. Then things fell apart again. You got your test results back and it was cancer, and you would need chemo. I'll never forget that day. Sitting in the dentist office begging you to know the results and I felt my heart sank into my stomach when you told me the news. MY mother was about to undergo chemo.
I knew the battle and the fight you were about to undergo through this process. I knew this wouldn't be easy, its harder some days than others. Watching the woman who raised me become someone I've never seen. She had to stop working, she is tired all the time, she is nauseous half the day, her hair fell out, it took so much adjusting.
Everyday is a new day. Everyday i'm realizing how precious life is and how fast things can change. One day i was off saying goodbye to my mom and the next day shes sick in bed. My mom has to undergo 18 treatments to win this fight against cancer.
So cancer you will not win, you will not take my mom. She will fight with everything inside her. She will go back to work in a couple months, her hair will grow back, and she will have so much energy again. My mom is to strong of a woman to mess with. You will never win.
So mom, im writing this for you. You one day will watch me marry my soulmate and you will see me have kids and be the best grandparent in the world. You will work till your ready to retire and live wherever you want too. Don't give up on your dreams because cancer has nothing on you. This will pass and you will be free again soon.
Keep fighting mom.
With all my love,
Sarah
