Dating is tough enough as it is, but add in the fact that you have anxiety and you are in for a big cocktail of a mess. There are two big problems with anxiety, one being that you cannot control it, the other being you can't make a partner understand your anxiety. A number of times I've tried to explain to a guy why I get so anxious I think my head could spin. Half the time they just tell me to "relax" and say "it's not a big deal." That's the problem! I can't just let things go, my body doesn't allow that.

I constantly have to be afraid of having a panic attack around a new guy. What if he thinks I'm a freak or a spaz? They aren't something I can just help and sometimes I don't even know they are coming. It's a lot to ask a new boy to hold your hand and take care of you when you black out during a panic attack. I understand that I know it is too much to ask, but bear with me.

Also, texting is a huge problem. How am I suppose to know what you're actually feeling? I constantly feel like the guy is just going to lose interest, or I said something wrong. If we go from texting back and forth constantly to barely texting at all, I am going to think I messed up. I am not saying that I need you to text me 24/7 actually, but you just can't change a constant for me. I understand life gets in the way just tell me you're busy and I'll be fine.

You need to understand that when I am trying to communicate how I feel to you, it is very hard for me. I try to explain why I get the way I do and I just need you to listening. I know things aren't a big deal, I know I shouldn't be worried on whether you like me or not, but I am. I am not asking for a lot and I am not asking you to fully understand. I am just asking you to try to see where I am coming from.

Here is the thing, though, I don't apologize for feeling this way, or acting this way. I am in no way too much to handle because of my anxiety. Does my anxiety get annoying, yes it does! I am aware. Don't make it too hard on me when we date, I don't need constant reassurance, I just need you to respect me. If you date me, you are dating my anxiety too, but she and I still really kick butt. With her I am still funny and outgoing, that is never going to change.