Living life with anxiety is never a walk in the park. Anxiety is a constant uphill battle against yourself, a battle in which you become your own worst enemy. The way we enact our anxiety symptoms differs between people who have it, but, there are common symptoms that are shared between them.
Here is a list of the top five "cute" things our anxiety makes us do, can you identify with at least half of them?
1. Overthinking
If overthinking were an Olympic sport, those with anxiety would probably win the gold medal and then begin to overthink about whether we really deserve it or not. Overthinking can affect every aspect our lives; our interactions with service people, intimate objects, and abstract ideas are put under a microscope and dissected to the point where we freak ourselves out.
2. Being overly self-aware
For most people, being aware of your self and your surroundings is nothing new; it is something we learn from a young age. However, if you have anxiety, this awareness can become something fierce. I'm always pulling at my clothes, checking my appearance, watching the others around me, and watching myself to make sure I'm not doing anything embarrassing or that will draw attention to myself. I exhaust myself doing this, but my mind tells me it's always necessary.
3. Always apologizing
If you have anxiety, you'll always find yourself apologizing for the faults you think everyone sees. "I'm sorry" becomes one of the most utilized phrases within your vocabulary, so much so that you find yourself apologizing to inanimate objects when you accidentally brush past them. This act of apologizing profusely can annoy others who don't understand it, which, leads me into my next point...
4. Thinking everyone is always mad at you
We can't help but think everyone we know is mad at us for some reason or another. When someone's behavior change towards us ever so slightly, our mind instantly jumps to the conclusion that they're either upset with us or annoyed with us. We're constantly questioning our relationship with family, friends, and significant others that it actually does put a damper on our relationship with them
5. Trouble falling and/or staying asleep
To have anxiety is to never know a restful night. Sure, we have them every once in a while, but sometimes our anxiety likes to sit on the edge of our bed and remind us of that one embarrassing thing we did earlier in the day. Or, it likes to dissect every single conversation we've had over the past week and point out all the little details or things we did wrong. When we finally do fall asleep, it doesn't last long, which results in us waking up in the middle of the night... multiple times.