I am still feeling upset, angry, confused, hurt, and regretful. Regretful that I put so much of my time into something that ended up being nothing. Something I put years of effort and care into only to be left without the gift of our friendship. It has been over a year, and I still have not been able to move past this.

I used to be so proud to tell people that you were my best friend. I thought it was amazing because we never fought or had any big disagreements. When I did start to notice that there were some issues with our friendship, it was all centered around communication. Communication is the center of relationships, and that includes being able to deal with conflict if it arises. I have many friends who I am able to call my close friends because we have been able to work through conflicts, and I know that these friends are true because they value our friendship enough to make amends. Loyalty is crucial in this sense because we have to face and accept the truth that friendships are not always going to be so easy when we dive into them. Fights cannot be avoided, and should not lead to the complete termination of a friendship.

Working through conflict was something you were afraid of, and I admit that it is scary. When I tried to talk to you about what was going on between us, in person, you avoided the conversation, and cut me off altogether. The more I tried to fix our friendship, the more you pulled away...the more I knew it was not worth my immense one-sided effort. Yes, friendships are a two-way street. It is the worst feeling when you know that someone has already given up on you before you have given up on them.

Although I have been struggling to move past this, I do want to let you know that I am strong. I am strong because I value myself enough to know that I deserved loyalty in our friendship, but I was not receiving it. I am strong because I have realized that although I am still hurting, I am confident that I will be okay. I am not at fault, and I hold my self-worth high.

I am thankful for the good memories we made together, and I do still share them with my friends to this day. It is weird because I describe you to my friends as "someone I knew" because it hurts too much to have to explain that you used to be my best friend, but are not anymore. I do not know if you will even see this article, but if you do, I hope you come to value loyalty in your friendships as much as I do.