I'm 23 years old, I'm a graduate student, I live with my parents, and I still have absolutely no idea what I want to do when I "grow up". Every time I'm asked "what's next" my answer changes. I've always known I was meant to pursue a creative career, so naturally, I went into marketing. I went through most of my undergrad career believing I was just going to graduate, get an entry-level marketing job, climb the corporate ladder, and everything would be just fine; however, as my graduation date slowly approached, none of that felt right.
I found myself applying for graduate school with no real understanding of why. I just felt like I wasn't supposed to be entering the workforce yet, so I didn't. I'm currently in graduate school and I really can't give you a reason why other than God wanted me here. This season of life is strange and honestly a little uncomfortable but through it, I'm learning.
I'm learning that it's okay not to understand the situations we find ourselves in, and it's okay not to know what's next. I'm learning to find peace and comfort in the fact that I serve a God who went before me and prepared a way. I'm learning not to hope in the things I can see, but to put my hope in Jesus alone. Learning is the key word here because it's a continual journey, and I don't have it figured out.
Every day I am learning. I look back on yesterday and realize I know a little more today and that the picture is coming that much more into focus. I know that there will be a day when the Lord's plan involving this season of my life comes to fruition and it will make a little bit more sense. But for now, life is uncertain, and that's just okay.
If anyone thinks I have anything together, even just a little - I apologize for deceiving you. I confess that I truly am a mess who serves a loving God that picks up the pieces for me. Despite the fact that I don't know what's next here on this earth, I do know what's next for eternity, and that's getting to experience the Kingdom of Heaven. I don't know about you, but I think that's something to get excited about!
