A year ago, I was in high school and I, of course, lived at home. I was absolutely TERRIFIED to go to college. I was by no means an independent person and I thought everything was perfect. I had a job, I had my friends, and I had my family. Leading up to college, I had no idea if I was going to play lacrosse or not anymore, because the idea of having a whole new team, and not knowing if I was going to be good compared to them was a very scary thought. I am somebody who fears the unknown, I assume the worst is going to happen. I have to admit, I was extremely excited to start new with a whole lot of people to meet, because being around the same people for twelve years was getting old. I, of course, was nervous about the classes and whether the work would be hard for me or not. I do not like goodbyes and had no idea how I was going to do away from all of the people that I know and love. There were so many things that scared me about what was going to happen once I graduated from high school.
Now, we are about a month and a half into college and I already know I am going to feel a homesickness that I have never felt before, any time that I leave. All of my close friends will be hours away from me and I know it will feel weird. I used to text and snapchat people all the time, but now that most of my friends are with me, I am barely ever on my phone unless I'm scrolling through snapchat, facebook, or twitter. It's so weird, because I never thought I would call another place home or even feel like another place was more a home to me than the house that I lived in before college.
Of course there are things that I miss from home, I mean Connecticut will always be my original home. I have never felt homesick when I'm away from there though; I think maybe that could be because I like to experience new things rather than continue on with what I'm used to. I guess I'm still not USED to college. I'm used to the food though and let me tell you, I am so missing my mom's home cooked meals.
But there's nothing better than living with your friends. If I need a back massage, they will do it. If I want to get dressed up one day, they will help me. They will do my make-up if I need them to, and they cuddle with me. I would do the same for any one of my friends. Sleepovers happen pretty frequently and we'll even have movie nights every so often. If I need help with school work, I can easily find a friend who is in my class who can help me. There are just so many things that make life easier. Of course, there is still drama, but it gets resolved pretty quickly for the most part.
Basically, what i'm trying to say is I am one of the lucky ones. I enjoy college enough to consider it home for the next four years. I consider these people my family.
