To my best friend who is no longer my best friend,

We did everything together. Dirt bike races, dance classes, cheerleading, went to the mall just to buy Justin Bieber’s first ever C.D. (which is still good). I find it so hard to think of childhood memories that don’t involve you, which is somewhat painful, and somewhat great to think about because we were great friends, and I was lucky to have you in my life for so long and so consistently when we were younger. I’m glad our parents grew up together because they led us to each other. I cherish what we were, and how it was unlikely for our names to be put into one sentence alone. It was always both of us, standing next to each other in line during a dance recital, or jumping on the trampoline together. We were pretty much two parts to one whole, and I am glad that I was able to experience that with you.

I thought you would be my maid of honor at my wedding. The one who stood next to me during one of the most important times during my life. I thought you would be my future children’s aunt (considering I have no sisters, and you were the closest thing I had to that).

Now we don’t do anything together. We are different people, unfortunate things happened, but we became who we are today partially because of each other. We cried over the same things, went through some of the same things, and practically lived with each other on weekends. All of that was nice while it lasted, but some things come to an end, and after so many years there was only one ending for this: a painful one.

I don’t know if you ever felt I was a bad friend to you, if I was here’s my apology, which is sincere, I promise.

We were on again off again friends for most of our lives when we were older, mostly because we were becoming different people, we were no longer the three and four year old girls with pink ballet slippers on (or black slippers, depending on the year). We became the people that we wanted to be, and unfortunately that meant that we were no longer the people who were friends for so long.

Our friendship is one that I will always remember, from all of the good things, to the bad things. I Every girl needs to be friends with someone for as long as we were friends, whether it be to learn what kind of friend they need, or what kind of friend they want to be. So, thank you for the memories, and thank you for the time you spent with me; those memories are bittersweet now.