I just want to thank you, yes thank you. I know it might be weird that I’m thanking you, but you truly taught me a lesson. It might not be the lesson I wanted, but nonetheless it was a lesson. You never know what you’re going to get until you try.

In high school everything was perfect. I was happy, you were happy, we were together. Then one day everything changed. Everyone asked why, what happened, we looked so happy together. It was a great question that even I didn’t know the answer to. The next few weeks were dreadful, but I finally moved on. So thank you for my first heartbreak.

You were out of my life and I was finally happy again. My first boyfriend after you was perfect. He made me happy, treated me right, and everything was great. You must have sensed this because there you were. You somehow showed back up in my life. Now there I was, torn between the boy I first loved and the boy I was happy with now. Well of course you won and there I was going right back to you.

Everything was going great once again. One day something unexpected happened and you started pushing me away. I stayed and waited, hoping that things would change once other things calmed down. I was there through it all, helped and waited, cried and loved. But you never came back, and once again my heart got broken. I should be used to this by now, shouldn’t I? But I wasn’t, it was even harder this time around. I thought when things calmed down in your life, I would be back in it. But I wasn’t, you moved on and didn’t even have the decency to tell me. My friends experienced me in every emotion possible and I’m sure they didn’t like it. But again, I want to say thank you, you showed me that boys can’t change even though you want them to.

And again, boyfriend number 1 after you. I took time for myself, got a full time job, a promotion, transferred colleges, and even made some new friends. Everything was perfect in my life. I hadn’t spoken to you in a couple of years, I was finally in the right mindset, and I was over you, or so I thought. I was out with my friends one night, having a great time and of course I saw you out with her. My world fell apart. Yes, I was happy with my boyfriend, but once I saw you all emotions rushed back in. I had to leave and I abandoned all my friends at the bar.

Of course the next day you came back into my life and I just kept letting you. Why could I never learn from my mistakes? All my friends yelled at me, told me I was crazy, that he’s just going to do the same thing. I ignored them, I thought maybe it’s possible he changed; it’s been a few years now. We slowly started talking, but I was being careful. We made plans to hangout, but things fell through. Everything went downhill from there. Time after time we made plans, but every time you cancelled or something came up. I would cry myself to sleep every night. Why was I letting this boy do this to me again? I couldn’t help it, he was the first boy I loved and I just wanted everything to go back to the way it was in high school. I knew it never would, but I was hoping and praying. My friends continued to tell me I was crazy, but they were all still there when I was crying and needed a shoulder.

So here is my final thank you. Thank you for breaking my heart for a third time. Thank you for showing me that my friends will be there for me no matter what happens or no matter how dumb I am. And thank you for finally showing me that I should move on and stop living in the past. Things will change, but some people never will.