Ever hear of the phrase, "sometimes you're the hammer, sometimes you're the nail?" For some like myself, it hits way too close to home. No matter if you're on top in the sense of the hammer, or getting beat down like a nail, you have to be one of the two; usually there is no in-between. Personally, the analogy for me always sucked, I compare myself to a storm more often than the two latter objects.
Some storms are gentle, little spits of rain or snow that give a nice coating to the ground where there is a sort of eerie calmness to it all. Most people love this kind of weather, it's an excuse to stay inside and take care of yourself. On the other end of the spectrum, however, hurricanes exist. Torrential downpour, blizzards, thunder and lightning. The kind of rain and wind that destroys homes, that makes people have to relocate. Goods days exist without a doubt, where you aren't too strong; but when the bad days happen, expect 40 mph winds, now back to sports.
Intensity. Intensity is the word I think of the most when I describe myself. The level may vary, but I've always considered myself intense. There are days when I come on too strong, and days where I am nothing but a wallflower, a simple breeze. The trouble is balancing those days out. With all things considered most days I feel like the hurricane. Angry, striking fear into the hearts of others, destructive. Gentle is not an adjective I would use for myself, even if I were to use it it would be sparingly. Tired is a word to describe myself, however, tired of the hot and cold days. One day I will not be a storm, but I will be a person, I will be whole.
