To the boy who told me after two years of dating that I needed to "prove my worth" to him again,

To the boy who gave me false hope for us by acting like nothing was wrong when I saw you,

To the boy who told me he, with no doubt in his mind, wanted to marry me,

To the boy who cursed me out because of one small thing, although you did a thousand times worse to me,

To the boy who told me he would be with me through all the hard times, then left when things got a little difficult,

To the boy who traded me in like I was nothing to him,

To the boy who lied straight to my face countless times, promising me there was nobody else,

To the boy who questioned why it was hard for me to trust although he was with someone else behind my back,

To the boy who told me he loved me although he was seeing someone else,

To the boy who didn't respect me enough to end our relationship in person, but did it over the phone the day after he left 1300 miles away,

I fell so hard for you, but you are not worth my breathe anymore. You made me feel so guilty for questioning you and her's friendship, ensuring me it was nothing more. You changed your mind about me, as I meant nothing to you. You forgot about me and moved on to someone you hardly know. You manipulated my mind to make me believe I was psychotic for thinking that you all were more, although you knew what you were doing. You made me believe I was overreacting and I was crazy. You lied to me, repeatedly.

Now, I am free. I am free of the countless hours of worrying and always putting your feelings above mine, no matter how much I was hurting. I am free of the constant emotional pain you put me through. I am finally free. I have a huge weight off of my shoulders, and it was all because of you. Before you left for school, I was more than happy. My mentality and emotional stability was slowly declining and you didn’t care nor wanted to be the one to help me because you "already had too much going on." You only wanted me around because we "helped each other", although you never helped me. It was always about you. You didn't respect me, nor even respect me to tell me the truth. And for that, I don't respect you.

Without you, I am happy. I have never laughed as hard as I have with my friends. I have never felt closer to my family. I have never felt as on top of the world as I do now. I have never felt so worthwhile in my life. I have never felt as though I had so much say in my life. I have never felt as though I had so much purpose in life. I have never felt so compelled to reach my goals. I have never seen my endless opportunities because I always thought about we, not just me. I have never felt so together in my life. Finally, I can do what is best for me, and ONLY me. You were the one breaking me. I am a better version of myself again. I didn't realize how lost I was until you broke me and I was the only one there to fix myself. I had no other option. I am a better person without you.

One day, I will reach my goals with the motivation of you. You making me feel as though I am not good enough or deserve the respect. But, I am. I am better than you think I am. I am stronger and wiser than you think I am.

And I cannot wait until the day you see all my hard work paid off and you're not there to celebrate it there with me.