Dear ex-best friend,
It’s taken me a long time to get to this place where I can talk about our friendship. They say that friend breakups can be worse than relationship breakups, and I would have to agree.
I can remember the day you decided I wasn’t good enough to be your best friend anymore. You decided I had too much drama for your life and you couldn’t handle that anymore. When I lost your friendship, I felt like I lost myself. You were my other half, my person. We were together every day, and when you left, I didn’t know how to function. As if it wasn’t hard enough not speaking to each other in the hallway, having classes together made it even worse. It baffles me how you chose to walk out of my life without a care in the world because for me, it was unbearable.
Your best friend should be the one person you can always turn to when you need a shoulder to lean on. They’re supposed to give you tough love when you need to be reprimanded. Most of all, your best friend is supposed to support you. I never got any of that from you. I felt like I was a constant nuisance to you. My problems were not as important as yours, and nothing I ever did was good enough in your eyes.
I, on the other hand, supported you in every decision you made. If I disagreed, I told you my opinion but, in turn, said I would love you regardless. We both made some bad decisions over the years, but I never left. I always stuck by your side as a best friend should, and I stuck up for you. Even when there were constant rumors about you and my boyfriend, I believed you over him. I valued your friendship, but you didn’t value mine.
We went at least half a year without speaking to each other, and it took me that long to figure out I was better off without your friendship. Without your drama and constant lies, my life was calmer. I no longer had your negativity in my head, and I began to see myself in a different light, one that wasn't shining over you. I didn’t feel the need to hide the real me anymore. I later made new friends who treated me right and cared more than you ever did, and you’re the prime example of what I would never want in a friend.
Today, I want to thank you for walking out of my life as a dependable person. Without you, I don’t feel pushed down anymore, and I have more confidence in myself. I am finally free of you, and I have no interest in ever being friends with you again. I hope that someday you’ll realize how good of a friend I was to you because you lost someone who genuinely cared about you.
Regards,
Me
