Ever since I can remember I have known about a Man, who's amazing, who wants to hold my heart in His hand, who calls me daughter and friend, who believes, NO He knows, I am His princess.

This Man, as I grew to know and believe in was named Jesus.

This Man, somehow managed to live a perfect life, for He was sent by God.

And this Man, stay with me, THIS IS MIND BLOWING, this perfect, faultless, precious Man died for me, and every person.

Every sinful, dirty person.

And friends, He didn't just die, no, He died in the most excruciating way possible.

And on top of that He took on every sin ever committed, and every sin ever to be committed, and as this happened His own Father had to turn His back on Him, for the first and only time ever.

This isn't the same as your parent being disappointed in something you did.

No, He performed the ultimate act, the holiest, sacred, selfless thing possible, and His father had to, HAD TO, turn His back on Him.

And guys, this wasn't a typical father-son relationship or even a great father-son relationship, this was a PERFECT father-son relationship.

They were perfectly, completely intertwined, and as He took on your sins, my sins, He had to be ripped apart from God as God turned His back on His own Son.

This was the most excruciating pain Jesus experienced.

This was worse than being betrayed by His disciples, this was worse than being dragged to a filthy jail cell, this was worse than being whipped over and over, this was worse than having nails pounded into His hands, this was worse than being hung on the cross as His shoulders dislocated and He couldn't breathe, this was worse than being mocked and having His clothes ripped off His holy, sacred body, this was worse than being taunted with sour wine, this was worse than being stabbed in His side.

This was excruciating, as Jesus' heart broke, just for us lowly undeserving beings.

This Jesus, this sweet, sweet Jesus went further than to just die to save me from my sins.

WHICH IS ALOT!

But He went farther, He decided to have a personal relationship with me, with you, to let me, us feel His presence when I'm sad and discouraged, to bring me joy, to give you the best life possible, to bring the world faith and hope, to make me fearless, despite my overactive mind, TO LITERALLY SPEAK TO ME, TO EVERYONE WHO ACCEPTS HIM!

This is why I believe in Jesus, not because of proof or science, I'm sorry if that's what you were looking for, if that's the case you'll have to look somewhere else.

But I believe in Jesus because I HAVE TO, I NEED TO!

I can't live without Him, I don't want to live my life without Him, I don't want to go back.

I NEED HIM, I NEED HIM SO BADLY

So I believe and I trust because there's no better way.

I believe, and I'm not ashamed because He was not ashamed of me.