I'm normally not one to express emotion or show my feeling about, well, anything. As a man, we have to have to tough guy persona and let nothing get to us. For years, I believed that and I lived by that. And while I still have a hard time letting out my true feelings, there are times when I can and this is one of those times. It's taken me a long time to admit this, but it's alright to be single.

Last night, I was sitting at a wedding rehearsal with two of my close friends. I sat back and watched everything come together, from the preparation of escorting the wedding party into the church to one of the groomsmen practice a song that's he's singing when the bride comes out. While everyone was stressing out and wanting to make sure every little detail was perfect, there was one thing that never changed throughout the duration of the rehearsal: nobody quit smiling. Not once. The happiness that the bride and groom were showcasing was infectious.

But deep down inside my thick skull and hard head, the thought of being alone and ever having that moment crept into my mind. And right on cue, the infamous fake smile was started, because Lord knows I'm not going to show that anything was wrong because I'm a man and blah blah blah. Typical response, right?

It's a summer of weddings, at least in my friend circle. So these thoughts have been going through my head quite often. But something changed last night.

I'm driving home from the rehearsal dinner and my Pandora music shuffle wasn't working for me. So I switched to Apple Music and shuffled my music, and the first song that popped was this one:

I sat back in the seat of the truck, in a deathly silence for the entire song, and just listened. I listened to every word. I don't think I've ever listened more intently to a song. One portion of the song really caught my attention:

"I will not boast in anything,

No gifts, no power, no wisdom.

But I will boast in Jesus Christ,

His death and resurrection.

Why should I gain from His reward?

I cannot give an answer.

But this I know with all my heart -

His wounds have paid my ransom"

And that's when I realized something. It's okay to be single. It's okay to be alone for a little while.

For years, I've been under the impression that I'm supposed to have someone. That I'm supposed to be in an important relationship with someone that could be leading somewhere. I've been told time and time again that I'm one of the nicest guys all around, and yet here I sit at 23 years old not even close to anything happening. I've boasted for so long in this portion of life, and I've lost sight of what is truly important and where my life should be focused.

This area of my life has been focused on the wrong thing. All of this talk of #ForeverAlone or "I'm never gonna find that someone" is pure rubbish. The greatest gift of all was Jesus Christ dying on the cross for my sins, your sins, everyone's sins. The Bible says that everything will be okay if you stay focused on God and His mission for you. Maybe it's time to take a step back and focus on what God is calling me to do, and stay so solely focused on the negative.

I can't tell you how annoying it gets when people will come up to me and say, "Oh Matt, it's okay. There's someone out there for you. You just have to be patient." Look, I know I have to be patient, but the man upstairs didn't give me much patience on January 24th (comedic relief). But no matter how annoying that statement, or any other statement that you may have heard, is, it couldn't be more true. There's someone out there for me, for you, for everyone. Where difference lies is where my focus should be. It's shouldn't be focused on the idea that I deserve to be with someone. It should be focused on relationship with God, and let, well, to quote Carrie Underwood, "Let Jesus take the wheel." As long as my focus stays on my mission with God, everything else will fall into place. I believe that more than ever right now.