Earlier this semester, I wrote an article on what it was like to be busy basically all the time. But guess what? I'm young and life changes constantly and it has been a lot harder to keep up with being busy than normal.

There are so many things that I want to prove. I wake up every day and tell myself that I'm a badass just so I can believe it and maybe other people will, too. But that's seriously so exhausting. So, while I'm listening to Spotify's "Who Run The World? Girls" playlist, I am also crying and trying to write this article.

I'm weak. I am so tired of life hurdling at me at a million miles an hour without any mode to stop it. I struggle with keeping my life in balance and also feeling productive. I will admit I am either the busiest person in the world or I will lay in my bed for 10 hours without moving. I do not have a slow-down switch. I'm either at turbo or turtle speed and I hate it.

I could complain for days about how my professors assign too much or my outside activities have bulky hours that mean I'm up late 100 percent of the time. But I won't. Because in all honesty, it's my fault. I over committed to too many things and too many people. I wanted to have it all.

But now I can hardly find the time to separate my social life and my academic life. I'll text my friends to hang out - but to study and I will eat while studying. It's not ideal and quite frankly it sucks.

My real question is why can't I be a badass bitch all the time? Because for a good month I had it all. I was working 20 hours at part-time jobs and internships and still getting great grades and being social. But as the semester winds down I have no time for anything and I feel like I'm drowning in deadlines all the time.

On the bright side, I can brag to people about all the cool stuff I'm doing.