Yes, I am considered to be a millennial, a 90's baby, a digital native, or which ever other term you would like to use to describe my age. It' sad, really. Not because of when I was born, but because of when I wasn't. I was born an old soul trapped within a young body.
I don't find enjoyment in your small talk. I don't care to talk about the weather. I can see that any day that I'd like. What I want to talk about are your deepest darkest fears-- the ones that have been kept a secret for your entire existence and have never been mentioned to anyone before. I want to talk about what you have planned for your future and how you plan on making your dreams become real. I want to talk about your favorite songs and what the lyrics mean to you and how you apply them to your life. I want you to open up to me and the only way to do that is not by scratching the surface, but by engaging in meaningful conversation, something that is no longer as common among people my age as it should be.
Finding someone you genuinely connect with is a rare occurrence. This is why old souls have a few really good friends rather than hundreds of acquaintances. One true friend is worth a million fake ones. I also find more enjoyment in quality time spent with people I care about whether it be enjoying nature, traveling to somewhere I have never been, or trying out a new activity I have never done before. Some people work to afford a materialistic lifestyle; I work to be able to afford to make memories.
When my friends aren't around though, that's perfectly okay with me. I have never been the type to ask for someone to come with me anywhere. I don't have a fear of eating alone, getting a pedicure alone, or going shopping alone. In fact, I like the solitude sometimes. It's relaxing, actually. I am able to be alone in my own thoughts and not have to worry about entertaining anyone. I have been this way since I was young and I have never felt ashamed of it, because I shouldn't.
When I feel any kind of emotion-- whether it be love, anger, or sadness, I don't simply feel it. I practically become it. I feel everything so deeply, and believe me, it is both a blessing and a curse.
The world does not revolve around materialism. I do not find myself feeling fulfilled after spending a ridiculous amount of money on a new handbag or designer sunglasses. What I find fulfilling, is taking the money someone else would spend on a materialistic object and spending it on a one-way plane ticket to place I have never been before. That, to me, is fulfilling.
Being an old soul makes it hard to see eye to eye with many people about technology. What other people my age don't seem to understand is how much of their life they are missing when they are looking down at their phone. When I go to concerts, I live in the moment rather than behind my phone screen posting the entire event on Snapchat. Why spend money on a concert ticket when I can just watch everyone else's social media updates for live coverage. Living in the moment is an important thing to practice.
Being trapped in the body of someone born in the wrong period can be unfortunate. However, at the end of the day, I wouldn't change it for the world. I am living in the body of a young person with the mentality of an old person and at times it can be conflicting, but at times is can be incredible.
