Recently, my life took a dramatic turn. Everything has changed, and right now, I feel more alone than ever. I am basically alone. And now I'm starting to see that maybe that's not so bad. I'm writing this after a night of crying, tossing and turning. Only to wake up feeling like a bag of garbage. Life isn't good at all, and although I only have myself to blame, I'll be alone. But I'll be OK.
Being alone when everything seems to be going wrong is something that you may need. You'll have time to reflect on your thoughts, what you've done, and who you are. You'll be able to take a step back and really look at your life to see where you may have gone wrong and how to make better decisions next time. It's OK to be alone because that's when you'll really figure out who you want to be.
At the same time though, it's not easy being alone. It's been a day for me, and it's already been like trash. I think the hardest part is being alone without being lonely. I may be the worst person to probably give advice on how to be alone, but I'll tell you what I'm going to probably do. I'll probably go eat sushi by myself. I might go see a movie on my own. I plan to walk my dog in the middle of the woods. And I may have to go to Millennium Park on my own to watch La La Land. I have to do these things without anybody else, just me, and that's OK.
Because we should be alone. We always have responsibilities to do, we're always busy. We always say "but what..."? And then we're never truly alone. There comes that we should and we have to because you'll have fun. You can do what you want now without feeling like you need to tell someone about your day. You can go see whatever movie you want, and you can spend however much time you want at the store when deciding what shoes to get. You spend your money on you. You will do whatever makes you happy and being who makes you happy. You'll one day be at comfort with yourself, which should be a priority.
In the long run, it will help you become a better person. You'll become a much stronger person because of all the things you had to do to get where you want to be. You'd have overcome so many struggles, and you'll know what to do. You'd have learned from your mistakes by then, and you'll know how to react and solve them better in the future. You'll be a better you because you were alone. And you were OK.
