She’s there
She’s there
She’s there
I can smell her on your t-shirt.
I can sense her presence.
Please stop texting her.
I do not like the way you smile when you bring up her name.
She’s better than me.
She’s prettier than me.
She is everything
And I am nothing.
Perfection in one being.
How could somebody be so perfect?!
I cannot stand the way that she smiles at you and your grinning response.
Who is she and why is she texting your phone?
Why are you responding?
You love her?
Just friends?
What are you saying to me?
Females are NEVER JUST FRIENDS.
Females always want more; they are sneaky.
I may be putting myself out there…. However, I know what it is like behind the eyes of a jealous girlfriend. Behind these eyes, we see everything. We see more than what we need to and we see pain. We see minor situations and formulate a crazy scenario in our mind. We see the modeled figure, we see the modeled personality, we see everything she is… and everything we are not.
We do not see ourselves.
We see a simple joke as flirting, a touch on the shoulder as temptation, a fun night out as cheating. There’s envy, recognition, blindness, and insecurities all churned in this pot of hell that boils when someone threatens our only source of contentment and happiness. We recognize that she can be the better option, we may see that she has a better figure than us, a better mind, a better GPA, and a lot more friends than we do; we are blind to our own greatness, we only see our faults; our inner cares are broadcasted whenever her name is whispered. We do not like the idea of someone else being able to hold your hand. We do not like the idea of someone else being able to make you happier, and quite frankly, it sucks.
And I am not talking about irrelevant relationships where the two have only been together for two weeks, I am referring to serious relationships where both partners feel a deep connection, and one may feel that the connection is being threatened.
So maybe this person is a slut and is trying to steal our happiness.
What if, that is completely untrue?
Our significate other holds something dear to us, they managed to walk into our boarded up hearts and create a warmth; an unfamiliar love that has been deserted and in need of more.
Jealousy clouds the mind and ignites the anger inside that is filled with pain, anxiety, and fear. This pain derives from the insecurities about yourself, or maybe even a past situation. The anxiety and fear could simply be reverting back to the feeling of being alone.
I tend to act out of fear. I tend to hold onto this one person because I feel that they may leave, so I clutch and I hold on tight. I react in ways that I know are not myself, I scream and I yell and I question integrities. When it is plain to see, all in reality… there is nothing to fear.
What is plain to you, is not plain to me.
Trust is the key to every healthy relationship.
Jealousy is not healthy.
Embrace your love and share to them your feelings, maybe they’d understand if you thoroughly expressed how you felt (in a calmly manner).
Feelings are irrational, but someone could never say that we’re wrong for feeling them.
If I fear that one day this one person will leave for the individual that I envy, why would I want to hold on to them? Were they truly with me in the beginning?
It’s definitely hard to think logically when emotions are flying across the room.
Emotions are not logical.
Sometimes I feel that there is no cure to jealousy.
It gnaws and chews at your mind until you are ready to go crazy and explode.
It is hard to forget the history that they once had.
It is hard to forget who s/he was in the past.
It is hard to see that this person is still in their lives.
It is hard to see your very own importance.
Jealously is a defense mechanism.
Jealousy is something I fear.
But it is also something that should be erased.
Behind these eyes, I see who I am when I allow my jealousy to take over.
I see that I no longer want to be this person.
