I don't know about anyone else but in my past few relationships or 'almost' relationships, I've, unconsciously, started to mold myself into what I think that boy wants from me. I've caught myself holding back on my sense of humor and instead adapting a sense of humor that is akin to theirs. I've dumbed myself down, a lot, so that I can get on his level and not come off as bitchy or superior. But you guys, I am so so so so so tired of it. I'm tired of being someone I'm not. Or at least trying to be someone I'm not.

I have this idea in my head that I have to be this perfect being; I can't swear, I can't be bare-faced, my hair always has to be done and I'm honestly afraid to open my mouth first most of the time. I know that a lot of this stems from my anxiety, some of it comes from the media, and some of it comes from how I've been treated by boys in the past.

I'm tired of being part of a competition between other beautiful, amazing women. I'm tired of a boy talking to a handful of girls and then "picking" the best one. No. That is not okay. I'm not cattle for sale at the county fair.; I am a human being and I, as well as the other beautiful, amazing women that you're stringing along, deserve to be treated like one.

Since I was 15 years old, I've been picked at, prodded at and torn apart by what boys expect of me, in general and in relationships. I owe it to Valerie and Nadia and Briana, but most importantly myself, for making me realize that I'm worth so much more. I'm not a second choice, nor the third, fourth, or fifth. I'm not a doll that you can customize.

I'm tired of not being good enough, I'm tired of not being "picked." It's a disgusting game that people play with one another and honestly, it makes me nauseous.

My intelligence is my intelligence, my humor is my humor, my opinions are my opinions, my body is my body and I'm done altering myself to fit anybody's needs.