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As If You're At A Complete Stand-still.

A paragraph for the soul.

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As If You're At A Complete Stand-still.
Amanda Denman

I feel this sensation of exhaustion from the world spinning around me. The world is at constant movement. The thoughts however are still at a constant stand-still. Just repeating the same words over and over. The same type of personality within hundreds of different bodies. I always seek the same type of person. I can't help how I feel. I always say that. And I always say I won't allow myself to feel so low about someone else. Or allow them to make me feel down about myself. You know like when you’re at the pet store, and you see the kittens for adoption; and you must have them? It’s like that. The feeling of taking something small, and watching it grow. That’s the thrill I constantly seek. I seek bringing someone back to life. Good things take time, and if you have to force it it’s probably crap. Hands down, crap. Because when you seek for such happiness it usually isn’t going to happen. Happiness happens when everything is at a stand-still. Where everything is slow and calm. Once you receive that happiness, once you're finally there... Imagine being so happy, just happy with the way your life is going for just once. Imagine it. And then imagine everything being taken away from you. You want to cry; you want to scream. Everything in this life isn’t making sense, you’re lost with no way out. That’s what it feels like, having demons in your head. The demons are constantly chasing the words you say down with fears after. It’s like the devil is having a toast of his favorite poison, at your expense. With this constant battle arising within your mind, other things start to happen. Soon you begin to wonder why you even seek out love. Why you even try to accept another person for their individual needs, and the flaws that come with chosing to love another being. But when the devil's voices begin to die down...The insecurities begin to arise. If it isn't one thing it's another. The process of overthinking starts... Away we go with thoughts of the unknown. Just remember during this time,if you are feeling not good enough for another human being it's only the devil saying you aren't. The devil and the demons you are fighting will always make you feel as if you're not worthy of love. The voices of insecurity begin to feel calming after awhile. Calm before the storm. Because once you are alone for so long, you remember what you're made of. You won't settle for anything less than what you deserve. As you shouldn't. The demons that are fighting you, aren't you. They're not who you're meant to be. Don't let them win.

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