Dear Ex-Best Friend,
Hey, how are you? I feel like that I should tell you how much I miss you but a part of me knows that you don’t care. If you did so much, we would still be friends, right? I hope you think of me every now and then and miss me too.
It’s been a couple of months since we last talked—who would have seen that coming? I know I didn’t expect it. So much has happened since we last spoke, and I’ve wanted you to know it all. Isn’t that twisted? Even though we’re no longer friends, I still want to tell you all the things I used to. It sucks because you’re not that person that you use to be to me anymore.
You were the person that I was supposed to be able to count on for anything. You used to be a text or a phone call away—but suddenly you stopped answering me all of a sudden. You were always supposed to look out for me—but then you were talking about me behind my back. We were supposed to be best friends forever—but the next thing I knew, we were growing further and further apart.
But that’s life. Nothing in constant and no one owes you anything. Even though we’re not friends anymore, I still want to thank you. Thank you for being my best friend and dealing with everything that comes with that. Thank you for the nights we stayed up just talking and laughing about our memories we’ve shared. Thank you for being honest and genuinely caring about me. Thank you for accepting me for who I am and never letting other’s judgements get in the way. Thank you for never sharing those embarrassing you took of me on social media. Thank you, thank you, thank you for being the best friend I needed during that time of my life.
Even though we are not part of each other’s lives anymore, I just wanted to let you know that I could never you. Trust me, I’ve tried several times. It sounds awful, but I thought it would get easier to get over losing you if I hated you—but I couldn’t bring myself to do it. I was so hurt when you left me but I will never hate you. You were at one point my best friend. Despite on how things ended up, because of that, I will always love you.
Every now and then, I still scroll through pictures of us and smile. I see screenshots of old conversations and laugh. Whenever I see something that reminds me of you, I always almost send it to you. I don’t think there is a day that goes by where you don’t cross my mind at least once, but the sadness and hurt are fading away and I’m learning to look at you as a cherished memory.
Everyone chooses their paths in life and I guess your path was no longer with mine. I hope you’re happy. I wish you the absolute best in everything. I hope you’ve found someone new to send all those weird text messages to, to stay up on the phone all the nights you can’t sleep, to binge watch "America's Next Top Model" with, and to complain and celebrate all the things with.
Just know that I don’t hate you and that I will always love you. Know that I cherish the memories we’ve made over the years and that I wouldn’t trade them for anything in this world. I’ll always check your Facebook posts to see if you’re doing okay because some things will never change. Know that even though I don’t go up to you the next time I see you, I’ll always be grateful to have called you my best friend.
Love Always,
Your Ex-Best Friend
