Dear no longer my forever,
We grew up together. Our parents are besties so since the day you were born we've been best friends. Our memories consist of blaring music in the downstairs basement in the Staunton house to dented heads from metal bunk beds to playing hide & go seek to climbing the tree in my backyard to carve our initials into when we were no more than 12 years old. I have loved you ever since we were little and I will continue to love you even if I'm not able to be the person you spend forever with.
We've had more sleep overs and late night conversations than most couples probably have had. We've had arguments and fighting matches. We've been bickering like husband and wife since forever... so I automatically assumed, you'd be my forever, and deep down inside I still pray that you are.
At the beginning of this year, we decided to give our relationship a try. We were 800 miles apart, living two extremely different lives, but there wasn't a single doubt in my mind that we would make it work. As long as we were under the same stars, nothing could tear us.
We relied on FaceTime and our five minute phone calls. I held out every ounce of hope as things began to go down hill, but I wasn't willing to give up my education to start our lives yet. I need my education and I am in love with the university I'm at. But truth is, there was nobody I loved more than you and that's probably still true til this day. We are so similar which is why we butt heads like no other. We're two very stubborn and passionate people who love immensely.
I pray everyday for your safety and sanity. I hope you find someone that is everything you need. Someone who stands there ground, someone who laughs a lot, someone that lights up your life in every way possible because that is exactly who you need in life. You deserve the absolute best person out there for you, even if that woman isn't me.
Because Z, I know how often you forget it, but please always remember how worthy you are of a true love. I love you always.
Love always,
me.
