Dear Loved One,

Let's get one thing straight, you have never left my thoughts. You linger in my mind constantly, for better or worse. Personally, I think you may have gone to early. What I would give to spend one more day with you in my life. Though you may be gone, you most certainly are not forgotten.

I've grown at least a little without you; I hope you would be proud of who I am becoming. I try to make you proud in everything I do.

I want to know how you are doing. What is it like in Heaven? Are the streets really lined with gold? The gates pearly? I miss you extremely.

I can still remember the exact moment when I got the news. Instead of sobbing, I just grew instantly numb. Oddly enough, I remember exactly what I was doing as most people do when they are asked "Where were you when the first plane hit the World Trade Center?" Suddenly, my world was changed forever.

Though it doesn't really get much easier, time has helped. I've stopped accidentally calling your number by now so at least there's that. I just want you to know that I miss you more than anything. What I would give to have you back.

There was never in the existence of humanity quite a bond like the two of us. Sure we didn't always see eye to eye; but then again, who does? There is nobody quite like you on this planet. Believe me, I've searched. There is just a special place in my heart reserved specifically for you.

I hope I live a life that you would see fit. I admit I have my mistakes. I just wish I had that same guidance that I could always rely on you for. Don't worry though, I live my life by your advice and counsel. I try to live my life to the fullest that way you can live on through me.

I see you everywhere. Actually, it's kind of creepy. I see you and do a double-take and just realize it was merely someone else who looked vaguely similar.

I will admit, it gets increasingly easier to talk to people about you. I tell them about your life, the times we shared together, the laughter the tears, the occasional argument. All is well until they ask how you passed. My heart sinks a little as I explain and relive everything. Though you are gone, I cannot stress how much you live on. You've left an imprint on my heart.

In times of strive when I wonder how can I possibly go on, I think of what you would want for me. I know it was usually the right path.

If there is one thing I will continue to do, it is live life to the fullest and pursue happiness to the best of my ability. That's exactly what you did and that's exactly what you wanted for me. I thank you for showing me that.

I love you.

Sincerely,

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