To My People,
You are the reason it gets better. My anxiety makes me confusing and difficult at times, and because of that I know that I am not always an easy person to love, but you loved me anyway. When I told you that I had anxiety you accepted it without question, and that made all the difference in the world to me. It is so easy for me to feel like I’m going crazy because so much of the panic and sadness I experience is irrational, but your acknowledgement of what I am going through shows me that what I feel is okay.
I constantly fear that my anxiety turns me into a burden to those around me, no matter how irrational that may seem. You are the people who take away that worry because you take the time to remind me that you care what I have to say. I can talk to you about anything and never feel like you’re judging me or looking down on me, which is hugely important when I am already beating myself up about the way that I feel. You are a diary that lives and breathes. With you I share my thoughts and fears and you always respond with words of love and comfort, and that means the world to me.
Sometimes words of comfort fail to make any difference, but that doesn’t stop you from finding a way to make me feel a little less alone in the world. You may not even realize it but you save me from myself just by existing. You are always there to hug me, hold my hand, or even just sit on the phone with me in silence so that I know you’re with me. These simple acts may not change the world, but they do change my life, and I’m grateful.
Somebody very special to me once told me that I sometimes remind them of a puppy left in a box on the side of the road in the rain. If that is the case, then thank you for noticing me when hundreds of others walked by without a second glance. Thank you for picking me up and taking me home despite the fact that I was shaking and sad and scared. Thank you for nurturing me and caring for me; but above all thank you for loving me unconditionally and without question. I promise I love you more.
Sincerely yours,
Someone Very Lucky
