I mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say it this, and that is I'm sorry. It's not that you're any less of a friend or family member when I don't come to you during hard times, it's just the simple fact that I can't talk to anyone, so it's not only you.

Some people like to talk a lot when they are experiencing a hardship and I can see why they do it. Typically talking to people about your problems and endeavors in life seems to make whatever you're going through a little easier and make's you feel like you're not alone. I completely understand why they do it. However, that is not me. It's very difficult for me to talk about hardships with my best friends let alone anyone else I associate with. It's not because I feel like I'm a burden or negative influence on their life but the simple fact that when I am experiencing an unfavorable hand in life I choose to be reserved and handle it on my own.

This doesn't mean I'll ignore you out of spite or malice. I just am going through a lot and tend to take more time for myself and just naturally end up distancing myself in my social life for a brief period of time. If you reach out to me and I don't respond, or barely do so it's not because I want to ignore you, I just can't seem to connect to other relationships other myself. This might seem selfish but this is the way I handle hardships in life. It's not meant to cut people out of my life, trust me that is the last thing I want, but it's a time for me to focus on me and handle everything with the most familiar person I know: myself.

To the friends and family I have that have supported me and stayed by my side through it all, I thank you with ever fiber in my body. There is nothing I appreciate more than your compassion and patience with me. Despite any future hardships I may endure, which there will be, I want you to know I appreciate all the support through it all. I may shut down and be brief but this is because I need time to myself and when another storm comes and passes yet again, I will be there to reassure you that your support is worth more than the most precious of stones and will never be taken for granted.