To start off I just want to say — I’m not sure if you remember me or hate me for never saying goodbye, but I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to let the distance between us affect our friendship. I didn’t mean to promise we would never lose touch and then we did anyway. I’m sorry that you may not even remember me right now as I am writing to you.
It’s not that I have an issue saying "goodbye" — it’s that I don’t ever find myself in a situation where I think it is necessary until it is too late. I find myself avoiding making a big deal out of the high possibility I will never see someone again and just relying on the small chance we do stay in each other’s lives. I would say I don’t know why I do it, but I do. I don’t like the thought of someone being gone forever. The thought that throughout life there will be so many people in and out of my life scares me. Goodbyes are hard, especially if they are forever. But what is even worse is never saying goodbye and forever wishing you had.
First, we were good friends and we would talk all of the time and hang out as frequently as possible. Remember when we thought we were going to grow up and live next-door neighbors for our kids to be best friends also? That would have been so awesome I bet. Then after a few months or even a couple of years, we slowly merge into different friend groups without it being made into any big deal. We barely even noticed it happened. We slowly drifted apart and not because we didn’t like each other anymore; but because we didn’t want to say "goodbye" and give our friendship the official stamp of being over forever. And it’s not like I don’t care about you anymore – I definitely do, I just don’t know who you are anymore.
I don’t know whom you are dating or even how many people you have dated since the last time we talked. Heck, I don’t even know if you still go to the same school anymore. There used to be a time where we didn’t go a day without speaking and now the most I hear from you is from what I can guess by your social media posts. It looks like you are doing well.
So, here it is — the big Goodbye. Goodbye old friend, thank you for being a part of my life when I needed you. Goodbye, for I will never forget you or the memories and times we shared together. Goodbye, pal — I am sorry that we didn’t talk more and we drifted ways. Goodbye, and believe me when I say I am sorry we never made it to forever and the last time we saw each other was goodbye.
Goodbye finally,
The Friend who forgot to Say Goodbye
