Dear you,

I want to thank you for breaking my heart. I mean that whole-heartedly and sincerely. Because of you, I'm now a better version of myself and a lot of that I have you to thank for.

When we broke up, I was lost. You were the last person on this planet that I thought could hurt me. You were my best friend and the one person I could count on to be there for me when no one else was. The days and weeks went by and all I could do was think about you and wonder how you were. I thought about whether you thought of me or if you wondered how I was doing. Were you feeling the same pain that I was? Or was this a long time coming and I was too blind to see it? Those were questions that replayed in my mind and questions that I never got answers to and that's okay.

I remember everywhere I went something reminded me of you. Whether it was a song or the stars, you were always there in the background to make me remember what I lost. Or better said, what I thought I lost.

In reality all I lost was a person who didn't care about me. Someone who put me last on their list of priorities and someone who suddenly became too egotistical to care about how much I cherished them. Once I finally realized all of these things, moving on became easier.

I forgive you for all the pain you caused me because at the end of the day I came out the other end winning. I forgive you because today I'm stronger and I have so much more self-worth than I knew I had. The only thing I can't forgive you for is for making me believe, even for a split second, that love wasn't real. I doubted love for the longest time and that was the worst part of all. I grew up with the idea of love being the most important thing in life. It's the one thing that's pure and true. And it's the one thing that's full of hope and promise. I know that's so cliche, but love was important to me and you made me doubt it.

Now I see that love is so much bigger than I imagined. I didn't need it to come from someone like you because love was already all around me. The love I got from my family and friends was more than enough. I also realized that true love still exists I just didn't find it with you like I thought I had. Love is different with every person you meet and the thought of falling in love again still makes my heart skip a beat.

I hope you find someone who loves you more than I ever could. I hope you find happiness within yourself. I hope you find the place where you feel like you can be yourself and not have to worry about those around you. I hope you are happy. From the bottom of my heart, that's all I want for you.

Thank you for giving me the chance to find myself and make me realize how much I'm worth and what I truly deserve. I owe a lot of that to you.

Sincerely,
me