Well hello there,
I didn’t expect you to come into my life again after not speaking for weeks, but here you are. To be honest, I don’t know whether to be happy and overjoyed or angry and frustrated. Yes, we had a lot of good times together from watching movies in your apartment to just sitting on your couch listening to your roommates bicker. But, in the end, the lack of communication eventually drove us apart.
Because of you, I have spent many nights alone in my room crying and wondering what I did wrong, or if I did anything to hurt you. If I did do anything to hurt you in any way, please know that it was never my intention, and I apologize for that. But also, look at this from my perspective — I’m young. I'm known to screw up at least once and just as any normal person would like someone. I cared about you, maybe a little bit more than I should have. I cared about you because I genuinely felt something for you, and no matter what, I will always care — No matter what anyone tells me.
But I am also frustrated with you.
I was there for you when you needed me, but you never reciprocated. I tried to help you as much as I could with the issues and problems you presented, but there is only so much I could do, and that frustrated me. I tried to help you, but you didn’t let me, and you never let me in. I can’t know what you’re thinking if you don’t tell me. When you texted me earlier this week, I was very shocked and got very frustrated. You had plenty of opportunities to talk to me, whether in person or over the phone. If you wanted to talk to me, all you had to do was find me. Our college campus is so small, we could see each other almost everywhere we go. Yes, I figured it would probably be really awkward to talk to me again after not speaking for a period of time, but you could have done it and made it less awkward for both of us. It really isn’t that hard.
So, do I miss what we were, absolutely! There is not a thought in my mind that doesn’t miss what we were. I just wish we could have worked on it and done some things differently so this situation could have been avoided entirely. You still mean a lot to me, and I will always care for you. I wish nothing but the best for you.
