An Open Letter To The Girl Patiently Waiting With An Impatient Heart

An Open Letter To The Girl Patiently Waiting With An Impatient Heart

"Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in Him." ~Psalm 62:5
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You can't rush something that you want to last forever. That's what I tell myself when my mind is so overwhelmed that it feels as if my life is in a continuous spiral that I only wish I could have full control of. But, in all reality, that's not how it's supposed to be at all. Maybe I am supposed to feel helpless when I sit in the chaos of what my life is. Maybe there is a bigger picture being created that I am blind to, but just for right now.

When I tell you there is nothing I want more than to get on with my life, I really mean there is absolutely nothing my heart longs for more. I want to hurry up and graduate college, but I said the same thing when I was in high school, and look at me here now, forever wishing for my ever-evolving future to make its entrance. When I was in middle school, I had various boyfriends, thinking I wanted to marry each of them, I prayed that time would pass and that I would marry them as soon as I could, but here I am now, totally in love with my boyfriend of over four years, Noah, saying the exact same thing. I want to graduate with my degree(s), get engaged somewhere along the way, build my house with Noah, marry him and have kids and love doing what I chose as a career path until the day the Lord calls me home. That is all I want. Doesn't seem like much, does it? I am sure your plan is similar to mine, but in its own special context. But these kind of things weren't supposed to be proposed and fulfilled in MY timing or YOUR timing. The hours glass is in someone else's hands who has a better future already set in stone, even now, for every single one of us. That someone is God.

I am not sure about you, but I can testify that if I was the one to have had absolute control over my life up to this point, there is no telling where I would be right now. Just take a minute and think about it. In my mind, I am assured that all the things I want are what's best for me at this moment, but how could I really know? God is on the right side of me whispering, "Just wait. It is all a process. Trust my timing, my princess.", while I ramble on about me, me, me and everything I NEED to do and everything I NEED to happen. It is only when I get out of my mindset of self that I can actually breathe and see that I am only in the beginning of my story, my temporary forever here on Earth.

Miley Cyrus, aka Hannah Montana, has an old song on one of her first albums titled "One in a Million" that my ear would constantly perk up to, even at the age of 10. One lyric in the song that still sticks out to me TO THIS DAY is, "They say that good things take time,". To me, this means to trust the waiting. You have to trust the timing on the nights you are up late studying aimlessly or that one day you're so bored in class that you "pin" your entire wedding on Pinterest. You must trust the wait, because the longer you wait, the more you ponder on it and the more the heart either grows more or less fond of whatever idea you have in mind at that moment. So trust God in His timing, because trust in Him is faith in Him--faith that He will provide you with anything that you might need, then some.

One thing that absolutely terrifies me, but fascinates God is the uncertain. God loves giving me new challenges, waiting for me to seek Him for guidance and watching how I carry His presence with me and over me like a blanket after I listen to what He has to say. He tells me, "Do not fear, for I am with you,", but yet I still fear what I do not know. The unknown is scary because we aren't familiar with it, so therefore it is not pliable like everything else in our life. We, as natural humans, hate when we cannot fix things to how we would like them to be. However, it is through our embracing of the uncertainty that we learn to love the process of becoming. Becoming a better friend, a better daughter, better wife, better colleague, better person than the day before, better servant to God...because when nothing is certain, anything is possible.

Life is a journey. It has twisting roads, high hills, low valleys, sunny days and rainy nights. Some days, you might not know how you're gonna make it to tomorrow, but what you can know, fully, is who holds tomorrow. I know that right now, you want everything all at once. But what would be the purpose of life if you received all you were entitled to all at one time? There wouldn't be one. So consider all these things you refer to as obstacles, giant leaps forward. Enjoy the ride, I promise everything that is designated to be yours will be yours as long as you learn to wait. So steady that heavy-beating heart of yours and learn to be patient as you wait for new blessings. Live your life day-by-day and you will surely find the treasure you are endlessly seeking. And always remember, do not trade God's timing for your deadline.


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8 Struggles Of Being 21 And Looking 12

The struggle is real, my friends.
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“You'll appreciate it when you're older." Do you know how many times my mom has told me this? Too many to count. Every time I complain about looking young that is the response I get. I know she's right, I will love looking young when I'm in my 40s. However, looking young is a real struggle in your 20s. Here's what we have to deal with:

1. Everyone thinks your younger sister or brother is the older one.

True story: someone actually thought my younger sister was my mom once. I've really gotten used to this but it still sucks.

2. You ALWAYS get carded.

Every. Single. Time. Since I know I look young, I never even bothered with a fake ID my first couple of years of college because I knew it would never work. If I'm being completely honest, I was nervous when I turned 21 that the bartender would think my real driver's license was a fake.

3. People look at your driver's license for an awkward amount of time.

So no one has actually thought my real driver's license is fake but that doesn't stop them from doing a double take and giving me *that look.* The look that says, “Wow, you don't look that old." And sometimes people will just flat out say that. The best part is this doesn't just happen when you're purchasing alcohol. This has happened to me at the movie theater.

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4. People will give you *that look* when they see you drinking alcohol.

You just want to turn around and scream “I'M 21, IT'S LEGAL. STOP JUDGING ME."

5. People are shocked to find out you're in college.

If I had a dollar for every time someone had a shocked expression on their face after I told them I'm a junior in college I could pay off all of my student loan debt. It's funny because when random people ask me how school is going, I pretty much assume they think I'm in high school and the shocked look on their face when I start to talk about my college classes confirms I'm right.

6. For some reason wearing your hair in a ponytail makes you look younger.

I don't understand this one but it's true. Especially if I don't have any makeup on I could honestly pass for a child.

7. Meeting an actual 12-year-old who looks older than you.

We all know one. That random 12-year-old who looks extremely mature for her age and you get angry because life isn't fair.

8. Being handed a kids' menu.

This is my personal favorite. It happens more often than it should. The best part of this is it's your turn to give someone a look. The look that says, "You've got to be kidding me".

Looking young is a real struggle and I don't think everyone realizes it. However, with all the struggles that come with looking young, we still take advantage of it. Have you ever gone to a museum or event where if you're under a certain age you get in for a discounted price? Yeah? Well, that's when I bet you wish you were us. And kids' meals are way cheaper than regular meals so there have definitely been a couple times when I've kept that kids' menu.

So, all in all, it's not the worst thing in the world but it's definitely a struggle.

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Photoshop, Filters And #WokeUpLikeThis Proves That Instagram’s Platform Advocates Deception Without Even Meaning To

Is your life on instagram depicted the same way it is in reality?

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Do you ever scroll through your Instagram and get aggravated by how amazing the pictures are? Or get aggravated by how perfect the people are….. Or how joyful the people seem to be in the pictures displayed? All these questions build up and make you wonder why your life isn't as cheerful as those figures seen on social media. Well, every time I view Instagram on my devices, all I see are perfect images and perfect moments captured. I often wonder why MY life isn't as impeccable and why I'm am not having as terrific of a time as the pictures seem to portray.

Thoughts bubble up in me, and I find myself asking: is this how everyone really feels, or is it just me?

I've come to the conclusion that people who post cheerful and seemingly admirable pictures on social media are the ones who are deceiving themselves and fooling me along with. If the moment was so tremendous, why was there a phone out? If the moment was so wonderful, why did they choose to take a picture of it instead of immersing themselves at the moment? Was it certainly a perfect time? No. Then it genuinely wasn't the time of your life.

The picture seeks to depict the time as perfect, but that wasn't what actually occurred. In reality, the people would have been crying or just sitting around the whole time, but in that exact split second of the picture, they were able to display a flawless image that people who scroll through Instagram desire to experience with their friends.

After experiencing moments that people capture on a mobile device at parties and casual hangouts, I have come to a realization that not only do people deceive others by faking happiness on social media, but they also deceive others into thinking their life is outstanding. In that picture perfect moment, it wasn't as joyful and valuable as it seemed to be.

The only thing they did was take pictures to depict a favorable time, but was it REALLY a breathtaking occasion or did you just take pictures to make it seem as if you did? The picture was taken to allow others to view it as the best time ever and have others believe you had fun. You would definitely say it was fun, but in reality, all you did was take pictures to make it seem fun.

It is insane to think about the countless times a person goes through their feed feeling upset about their life by simply viewing someone's picture and assuming they are having "the time of their life." They don't even think about how the amazing picture is, but the moment wasn't.

This must come to an end. Though some people would argue and say they want to share aesthetic and pretty pictures on their social media, Instagram isn't for this. The purpose for Instagram is to post pictures with friends and family along with funny memes to keep Instagram lively, though Instagram isn't being used in this context. People need to essentially begin living in the moment instead of worrying about getting an Instagram picture. It isn't worth the hassle.

If you aren't truly having fun in life then what do you have to show off? Why not genuinely enjoy the moment, and worry about capturing a picture or two later? It is crazy to think about how people only care about how others view them. They don't care about how they view themselves or whether they are fulfilling their happiness. This society is definitely based on a sense of belonging, of being accepted into the community.

At the same time, people viewing these images begin to lose self-esteem because of the flawless group of friends they see on their Instagram feed. The thought of making yourself happy and enjoying the moment is diminishing as people begin to deceive their happiness. So, let me ask again: is the fun shown on Instagram reality, or is it just a deceptive fantasy?

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