I'm sorry if it might have hurt your feelings. I didn't do it to be mean. I did it because it's what was better for me. Most of you are from my partying days. I am no longer the person you knew then.

I have grown. I guess you could say I've blossomed. I am no longer 17 drinking every weekend, constantly wondering where the next party will be at. I no longer wonder how I will get home every weekend. I don't have aches from denying my body the things that it needs.

I don't miss those days. I miss the good times, but that's why we have pictures and memories. I might miss hanging out with you, but I don't miss how we were.

I have it so good now. I am engaged, and I'm thrilled about that. I know how you scrolled past all of the news about it. You're not happy for me because I'm no longer miserable with you. If you feel like you are thriving doing the same thing, you're wrong.

I left you behind for a reason. You didn't push me to become a better person. You never helped me, you benefitted off of me. You, honestly, are stuck behind in a small town mindset. I'm more than that and better than that. I don't need somebody who doesn't care about me. I don't want somebody who doesn't care about me. You don't matter to me, anymore.

You may say I "ghosted" you. However, I had a reason to do so. You are an adult, but yet act like you are 12. You are in drama, drugs, partying, etc. I have it so good, and for that reason I will not go back. I cut you off for a reason. Life is not a competition, but you are not apart of my pit crew. You secretly sat in the stands hoping I would wreck, so I could become stuck like you. I know how to drive, and I have my seatbelt on, too, for when things get rough.

For the friends who are still with me from those days, thank you. If you are reading this, I'm so thankful for the ones who grew and blossomed with me. Thank you for finding out that being wild is not all that it is cracked up to be.

Sincerely, a woman who did it for herself.