Hi friends, it's me.
I just wanted to tell you that I know that you're getting frustrated. I'm never around, and whenever you invite me out I'm already busy. I start my day off with work and I usually end it at my other job. When I'm not working, I'm in class or doing homework at the library, and I don't ever have time to make it out to dinner at the local bar & grill or to go to karaoke, even though it used to be tradition. I can't go to campus events often, and when I do, it's usually to volunteer with my organization. There's no wiggle room for free time until around 11pm, and when I do finally get off work, I'm always too tired to go to the "dressed up to get messed up" parties or get schwasty with the crew. I get it, it's frustrating.
I really want to explain something, though. It isn't that I don't want to go out. Trust me, I'd much rather be spending my time with you guys. I really miss singing throwback Britney Spears super embarassingly every Wednesday night. I miss being apart of the club sports team, and I miss going to all the fun campus events like we did at the beginning of college. I'd much rather be out and about with my best friends rather than doing my side work or being treated like s#@% by customers. However, I don't have that option.
Financial aid sucks. I get close to no money from the government, plus I have rent and bills to pay. I can't afford to blow money on Wednesday karaoke nights anymore because I use that money to pay my water bill. I can't get dressed up and messed up because when I get off of work after working both jobs, I'm too goddamn tired to want to do anything but go home and go to bed. I have rent due every month, plus I have the rest of my school bills to cover. I'm drowning in work and homework, and knowing that I can't make you guys happy honestly makes it worse.
I appreciate the invites. It helps me to know that I'm alive and breathing, even though I question my existence (and insanity) every day. But, please don't be offended when I say no. When I have the energy to go out, I promise you'll be the first to know, but for now, I need your patience. I need to know that you still have my back and aren't angry with me, because after hard days at work I really need that support more than anything. I need to know that I have people in my corner, because being as busy as I am is NOT easy.
I haven't forgotten you, friends. I'm just simply too tired to go out these days. I'm still down for late movie nights and BFF cuddles, and I miss you all like crazy. One day, I won't be as busy. But for now, just keep on being patient. If you think this is hard on you, just imagine how hard it must be for me. Thank you for being patient, I really hope you continue giving me your support. I love you guys.
Love,
The Friend Who Works Too Much
