Senior year is about having fun with friends and making memories, unfortunately my senior year was unlike the normal stereotype. It's true that God takes the best people from us. You died too young, its as simple as that. I find myself missing you on the sunniest days, not the rainy sad ones. The sunny days are the hardest because I often look around wishing you were here to experience it with me.

Hi guys,

Well I might as well just get to it. I miss you. To think that it has been so long without you guys is crazy.

It never gets easier without you. Everyone wants to tell you that it gets better with time. That's crap. It doesn't, maybe it never will. You gained your wings too early and that just wasn't fair. Some days are harder than others, especially when I see your name pop up on my Timehop. But then I remember the laughs we shared, and suddenly I find myself laughing through the tears.

I hope I'm making you proud. I hope that I'm working hard enough to show you that I want to do great things. I hope that I'm working hard enough for you, I hope that you are looking down on me amazed by all I am accomplishing. I also hope that you aren't mad at me when I have days where I don't want to do what I should be doing.

I'm sorry for being mad. Getting the phone call on those days was the most heartbreaking thing. I'm sorry I got so mad you left us so early when you both were the reason of so many people's happiness in life. I was mad at God for taking you away from all of us. And I was mad at myself for not saying how much you mean to me every chance I could get. Maybe I'll never understand why you were taken at such a young age, and I'll always be angry about that. You guys had your whole life ahead of you. Graduations, marriage, children, jobs, vacations... it's just not right that you lost it all when you experienced only such a short period of time.

I will never forget you. No matter where I go in life, or what happens, you two will have the most special place in my heart that no one can ever replace. You are irreplaceable and no one will ever make the impact like you had. You are so missed each and everyday.

I can't wait to see you again. I can't wait to see you again. Heaven is truly blessed to have you both up there at once. Its unfair actually, that God gets you all at once. But he picked the most amazing, strong, beautiful, charismatic people to keep him company.

And finally, thank you. Thank you for all the laughs and memories we had then you were here. Thank you for always putting a smile on my face when I needed it. Thank you for making me a stronger person, without the both of you I wouldn't be who I am today. Thank you for getting me through my hardest days. Thank you for looking over me and keeping me safe in everything that has happened the past year and a half.

Despite all the tears that have been shed, I still smile at every picture I see of me and you. I will never forget the sound of your laugh, or your beautiful smile. I will never to be ready to accept that you are truly gone. I like to imagine that this is whats best, that you guys aren't suffering here anymore. But it just gets so damn hard sometimes. As the days go on, it never really takes a toll on how long you've been gone. It feels like just yesterday you were here and talking to me. Feels like just yesterday that you called me because you were bored and wanted to go out somewhere. You all fought for so long against so many struggles in your life, that I can't help but be inspired when I think about how strong you are. You made every second last, you never hurt anyone, you always made others smile, and you always were laughing.

Everyone wants to believe that there is something they could've done to change this. Everyone wants to think that if they did something different just a few days before your world came crashing down, that you would still be here today. When I take a step back and look at all the people that wish they could change things, I remember that you made an impact on every life you touched. You made a difference in the world, you were and still are an inspirations to so many people. It may have been a short life, but it was an epic one. I've learned that grief does not change you, it reveals you.

I hope you are causing plenty of trouble up there, keep it up. But don't do anything too stupid.

Love,

Someone that will always love you.