To my Ex- Best friend,

We used to do everything together. I was there for you and you were there for me. You were my absolute favorite person on the planet and I trusted you with everything I had. And that's not an easy thing for me to do. I loved you, but after everything that you have put me through, that love turned to loath. I blame you for all my negative thoughts and emotions. You are the reason I am sometimes crippled with anxiety or sadness. What you have done to me is unforgivable. How do you wake up one day and decide that you don't want to be best friends with the person that you've grown with for as long as we did? How do you just blame someone for the ending of the friendship because they were "toxic"? And I'm sorry that you thought that I was the toxic one, because in reality you were. You still are.

Even though you are no longer in my life and I don't want you anywhere near my life, you still linger. Not in person, but in my thoughts. Every day I think about everything you took away from me. You took my happiness, my self-love, my sanity and the biggest one, all the rest of my closest friends. You leaving me, it hurt, but I could get over that. But you getting everybody else to choose your side, surreal. I couldn't believe that you could be that evil to ruin my life that easily and with no regret. I was broken, but now I'm learning how to put the pieces back together with the help of people that actually support me, unlike you did in the end. I don't need you in my life and I don't want you in my life.

I think I could speak for anybody when I say that I don't want, or need, someone to stay in my life if they've ever hurt me the way that you have. Now because of you I have to learn how to pull myself out of the hole you dug for me. I have to learn how to re-accept myself in other people's eyes. I have to learn how to trust that people won't leave me like you did, or blindside me like you did. Even though I'm the one going through hell, I actually feel bad for you. I feel bad that you decided to push away an important person in your life and I'm sorry that you won't be able to grow from this situation like I get to. And all in this process of rebuilding myself and growing, I'm glad that I can be able to rid myself of you and the demons that you put on me.

Loathingly,

Your Ex- Best friend