We all have our moments. Moments where our better judgement has taken off and our lack of judgment steps in. Moments that we wish we could take back and moments we wish we could have just once chance to redo.
It happens to all of us.
If we were to look at ourselves in the mirror during these not-so-hot moments, we wouldn’t like the person we saw looking back at us.
What’s worse about these moments is the fact that we are not the only one affected. We affect others – we hurt others – because of our actions. We let people who we love and care about see a version of ourselves that we are not proud of.
So this is my open apology for those who have been hurt by the times that I wasn’t the best version of myself.
I’m sorry for the times that I was too quick to anger. Sometimes I have a short fuse and I don’t realize how angry and ridiculous I’m acting until it’s too late. I realize that during these times, I can find myself speaking out of anger, saying things that I don’t mean (sorry for when I called you a Mudblood, sis. I didn’t mean it).
I’m sorry when I’m in a bad mood for absolutely no reason and I take it out on those around me. It’s obviously not your fault that I woke up on the wrong side of the bed so there’s no reason for me to be putting the blame on you. My rude and spiteful comments are not needed yet there they are making their grand appearance.
I’m sorry for the (many) times I have been selfish. This is no excuse for my actions, but I am young and I am still learning. I’m still learning how to become a more selfless person and think more about those around me other than solely thinking of myself.
I’m sorry that I play the victim from time to time. Sometimes I don’t see how someone else can be hurting when I’m also hurting. I see my issues and think those are the only ones that are important at that time. Again, still learning.
It’s inevitable that we will all fall victim to the not-so-great version of ourselves. The only thing we can do is to learn from these moments. Learn from them and don’t make the mistake of making them again. People will only stick around for so long before they realize that they don’t need to be treated that way. This goes out to everyone. We will all have our bad days, bad moments, even (heaven forbid) bad weeks.
But during these times, make sure that you’re not letting the worst of you get the best of you.
