There's no precise moment where it all went tumbling; the process was just as drawn out as it was exhausting for us both. In a world consumed by the need to place blame, I'd rather turn the tables. I'm sorry.

Let me start by saying that I'm no longer bitter. I may still be confused, but I'm no longer wondering. I used to recount our moments together, kicking myself for the words I could've said, or questioning whether or not I really gave us every chance. The truth is we were premature and, therefore, premeditated to disappoint just as easily as we fell in love. I won't discount what it was: love. But now, I've realized that even that can become an unhealthy mess if you let it; and, I'm sorry that we let it.

I've also noticed, through much reflection, that we were both mistaken as to the real issue. What I believed was your lack of this and what you conceived was my fault in that never really was as we thought. We were good people. We are good people. We were just no good for each other in that season of our lives, and I'm sorry it took our painful words and an unpleasant separation for me to realize that.

I will apologize for the moments I lost control and blamed you for my shortcomings. In that stage of my life, my own insecurities kept me from admitting the worth of others. It has only been through God's good grace that I have been able to diagnose that lack in myself and to quit searching for the assurance of those around me. You could even say you've made me better.

I expected you to change the most inner workings of yourself for my benefit and my pleasure, not understanding how I truly desired those traits for myself, and how I was expecting you to be someone that I couldn't be. You were never meant to complete me, as I had initially anticipated, but to serve others alongside me better than I could accomplish on my own.

Lastly, I wanted to thank you. While I met our first moments apart with contentedness, I have been able to see these remaining with a bright, new shine. I am humbled to say that, even for a little while, we were able to experience the best parts of each other. You are a memory that I will cherish, and refuse to look back on with anything but a smile. It is my prayer that throughout the rest of our lives, whether spent together or apart, we can recall each others strengths and wear them as our own. I will never fail to admit that I am better for having known you, and I know that some part of me helped to knit some piece of you into who you are now.

Thank you for your time, for your life, and for your love, even if it was momentary. I am forever thankful.