A letter to myself, of who I really am.

Whenever I visit my family up North or can remember to do this when I am at home; I write a note/letter talking about what is going on currently in my life. Like what's the gas prices (right now it's actually hard to find gas with this shortage), what's the date I'm writing this, what's milk and bread prices, but also how my friends are doing, what's going on a school, how the family is doing, what's on my bucket list currently, and always a promise at the end to write again. With each note I greet my older self and wish myself well at the end.

See no one knows about these letters to myself because they are only to me, I am sure at some point I'll show my best friend or sister, but for now they are just for me. They are highly personal and talk about what is happening at that very time in my life. I've written about former friends, boyfriends, and best friends; never anything bad because that isn't how I want to remember that person. When i do look back at them I first think, "wow my handwriting was bad" and that I always wanted to sort of memorialize what was going on or whomever I was talking about, so I try to keep it positive to remember the good within that person.

This is a little bit of information about myself, that I no longer have to but in my letters to myself because I already know some what who I am. No one has an exact explanation of who they are because everyone grows, no one remains the same person they were yesterday.

WHO I AM: I am weird, odd, funny, I make mistakes (will finally openly admit I was wrong), I spill food and drink (for no reason sometimes), I will yell at random inanimate objects, I talk to my pet fish and stuffed animals, I question “why” about everything, I love science, I try to be nice to everyone even if I don't particularly like them; but sometimes it may not appear that I am being nice, even if I actually do like that person. I am a grump when I don't sleep enough, but can go two and a half days with no sleep. I am neither an introvert or extrovert. Mainly a night owl but can be a preppy early bird if needed. I will worry over the little things for absolutely no reason sometimes. I have patience but it can be very thin sometimes. I want to travel, not the entire world but some foreign countries yet I have motion sickness and don't like planes.

I am, Elizabeth Rubsam, I am 19 years old and currently despise the idea that I am an adult, I don't want to be an adult cause that means that my childhood is coming to an, I'll never lose sight of what it meant to be a kid but at the same time I know what it means to be an adult and certain aspects I like, most so far no, not at all. As always I make a promise to write back so my older self will remember who I truly am.