We met when we were just twelve, now that seems so long ago.
Every day we spent together, just so we wouldn't be alone.
You were weird, but I liked you too,
I only wish I'd gotten through.
All it took to begin was one hello,
but not a goodbye to end it.

Through the years, we saw each other change.
It was always together, but never the same.
I thought I would have you forever, but you set out to prove me wrong.
Turns out that I had to be strong when you were gone.

There was someone who finally noticed me and I let it go to my head.
I convinced myself every night before I went to bed.
I never saw what it did to you,
And when it was all over I didn't want it to be true.
Now I can't convince myself every night,
And all I can think is, "It's my fault".

I don't think anyone saw it coming, not even you.
It was something that not I even I knew.
Everyone asked me why, to where I could not give a solid answer.
You and I used to be so close, why couldn't it have been cancer?

Maybe then I wouldn't have to carry all this guilt.
I feel like I just watched the sword go all the way to the hilt.
I torment myself every night thinking of what was done.
Why did it have to be the gun?
I looked into your eyes, and then it was all over.
I almost wanted it to be me instead.

No one tried to stop it from happening.
You walked right in - now this is all saddening.
No one noticed as you looked around,
You felt like you've always been let down.

I saw it in your hand, but it was too late.
You decided to choose your own fate.
Before I could say a word,
There was nothing left to be heard.
You pulled the trigger, and you fell down.
I almost think that you enjoyed it.

I was torn apart at the awakening.
If only I heard the beckoning.
You were once there, now lost.
Why does everything have to come at a cost?

It is a shame to love something that death can touch.
I never knew it, but now I miss you so much.
All it would've taken was just one word,
Something that you had never heard.
You moved on from this world into the next and I,
I am left alone.

"Now that it's over
I just wanna hold her
I'd give up all the world to see
That little piece of heaven looking back at me
Now that it's over
I just wanna hold her
I've gotta live with the choices I made
And I can't live with myself today"
-Skillet, "Lucy"

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