I'm an "almost relationship girl". If you don't know what that means, bless you. I didn't even know there was a label for this until like two weeks ago. Basically, we never make it passed the talking stage. It's not a flattering label by any means, but it's definitely better than any of the alternatives. Say friends with benefits, I dare you.

There are lots of us out there and you know that's sad, but it's okay. I want the rest of you to know that you are someones "relationship girl." I am too. But for right now, our lives are like this.

We are givers. We are kind and caring and some may say we try too hard. I don't think effort is a bad thing. We just want to find the one we can spoil.

We kill at the crash and burn. Anybody else really good at two week flings? Things go great and amazing and then all of the sudden they stop.

We get all the lines. " I don't like labels." "I'm not ready for a relationship." "We're too young to have a serious relationship." And my personal least favorite: " I don't want to lead you on." *automatic throat punch*

We are insecure. Constant rejection takes its toll on everyone. We want to know what's so wrong with us that we can be yours, but you can't be ours. We don't understand why we are not something worth putting a label on, or putting effort into.

We are used to getting hurt. It sucks. We want a relationship eventually, but it never gets that far. Our shelf life runs out. We put all of our time and effort into someone and we care about them and support them and are there for them. They leave, or choose someone else.

We are unlucky. We just have longer to wait for the one. And that kills us.

Lastly,

We are worth it. Someday we will be someone's "relationship girl". God tells us to be patient. He is testing us. Trusting in him will lead us in the right direction. We are beautiful, each in our own way.

So yeah, right now. I'm an "almost relationship girl'. But down the road, I will be someones, girlfriend, wife, maybe even mother, and so will you.