I am afraid.

Afraid of the despicable acts we humans seem to deem admirable

Afraid of the silence accompanying peace, only to burst with brutality later on

Afraid of the whisper of worry waiting within whatevers and what ifs.

I am afraid of meaningless, meaningful things

of not quite reaching the top, my hands left to fall

of failing to fix, failing to fall, failing

of being useless, unable to serve, to help.

I am afraid of the depths of “destiny”

of the desire to dream, yet it only becoming a nightmare

Afraid to lose what was never gained, to take what was never given

or fix what was never broken.

I am afraid of the tortured feeling that chews its way through lost minds

of the unrelenting wards built to shield your spirit from hurt

of the pain eyes reveal when they open their windows

Afraid of the beautiful disgust that burdens her heart.

I am afraid that her body, his body, will shatter like glass in a swift motion of hate

Afraid of the influence used to seize and crumble living temples

Afraid of the degrade, of the promenade made to serenade the fabricated

days of the “perfect,” of the “faultless,” of the “unblemished.”

I am afraid of the wolves that torment my temptation

of the world “rescuing” my soul and shaping it to a mold

of my service denied, my freedom confined, my spirit disguised

Afraid of becoming a guidebook to guilt, a map to mistakes, a destination of distrust.

I am afraid of thirteen-year-old women, with made-up faces and cropped shirts

of technological talking and emoticon emotions

of human interaction losing its interaction, it's action, it's face-to-face reaction

of aimless “LOLs” and the unfulfilling satisfaction of an Instagram “like”.

I am afraid for my future, your future, our future

Afraid our humanity will fly, left for us to become impersonal persons

robotic, mechanized calculations meant only for sci-fi movies and dystopias

Afraid I will live behind a wall of fear for living,

a distrust, a disgust, a revolt against life itself.

I am afraid. Afraid for you, afraid for me, afraid for us.

Afraid.