If we're being totally honest, I still don't see myself as much of an adult.

I'm only 19, I still live in a dorm at Villanova University where I pay for a meal plan, and I'm first and foremost a student. Legally, I have to sign my own papers and I'm allowed to vote, but other than that, my "adulting" responsibilities don't stretch very far.

And thank God.

I am terrified of entering this so-called "real world" where I have to pay my own bills and find a job and not go broke and cook all my own food. If "High School Musical" lied to me about what high school is truly like, what's stopping any other movie or TV show from lying to me about how big of an apartment I can afford with a crappy salary?

What if I end up in a job that's completely wrong for me and I never can escape? What if everything I studied in school doesn't even remotely prepare me for what I want my career to be? Are your first years out of college just like your freshman year of college?

You know, where you take all of the core classes before you can start really getting into it. How long am I going to have to wait before I start doing the things that make me happy?

Does post-grad life come with a 3-month free trial? Is there a discount code for rent in New York City?

This realization is really coming as all my friends begin to turn 20. 20?! That seems far too old. Once you're 20, you're a real person. No more messing up and blaming it on the fact that you're a stupid teenager and that you're learning. No, I am not ready for my twenties. I'm a college sophomore but I feel like I just graduated high school yesterday.

I'm avoiding the real world at all costs, and I'm not afraid to go to grad school to do it. My bank account, however, is terrified. I'm gonna stick to being a student for as long as I possibly can. I want to keep learning before I dive in head first. I can try to act like an adult, but I feel like everyone around me sees right through the facade.

At this point in my college career, I can barely imagine myself as an intern, let alone a working professional. I feel like I'm a toddler trying to fit into big kid shoes, and I'm not hiding it well. I'm scared of the real world and I'm not afraid to admit it.