Nearly everyone in this world has a bad case of word vomit. Since High school, I have ALWAYS struggled with my weight. During my senior year of high school, I weighed under 100 pounds while being 5’ 9”. Comments came from kids and adults about my weight and words along the line of being too skinny and being extremely underweight almost daily. If I were to walk up to someone who was even slightly overweight and commented on their size, it would be viewed as an awful thing to say. I would be confronted, and most likely yelled at, for speaking about their weight. I would NEVER disrespect someone because of their weight because I know how it feels. BUT for some reason, it is okay for people to run around saying how underweight I am? Or it is okay for me to constantly hear about how I need to put some “meat on my bones”? It is okay for people to run around telling me to gain weight, but it would be wrong for me to tell you to lose weight? Kids in my high school said I looked like a piece of plywood and I was a stick. Now, why would they say that? Because why not throw someone else down when you feel bad about yourself?
Now, you probably are thinking, “Oh, the skinny person is going to keep complaining about being skinny.” But that isn’t what I am complaining about. I will tell you right now, I love my weight. I have tried eating all day, nonstop. I did not try for myself; I tried so I wouldn’t get made fun of anymore. I simply did not gain weight easily because of how active I am. Now, I often don’t eat because when I do I feel disgusting and sick so I skip meals constantly. Yes, it is unhealthy but it is what makes me happy. I know that no one is truly 100 percent happy with their body, but I can tell you I am 99 percent happy with mine. I have shamed myself enough for you judgmental people and I will no longer put myself down for anyone. I no longer want to hear “Real women have curves” or “You would be more attractive if you gained a few pounds.” I will not change my life just to attract males, I don’t want someone in my life if they don’t want me for my personality. So, keep your opinions to yourself because they are irrelevant to me.
Also, stop asking me questions and speaking for me. I don’t want to hear “Are you eating enough?” If I wasn’t eating enough I would change it myself. What is even worse is when someone says “Oh she doesn’t eat.” SPEAK FOR YOURSELF.
Now, I see that the word “skinny” seems to be so positive, but “fat” is so negative. I know, no one should ever be called fat because no one should be pushed down for their weight but why can’t people think that way about calling people “too skinny”? Whoever said that there is a correct “size”? Everyone has different opinions and likes/ dislikes. The Thin Ideal
To anyone who criticized my weight;
I am sick of being told 0 is not a size. 0 is a size, and it is my size. I am so sorry I don’t please you and I can’t change my weight. So if you want to keep saying things to hurt me, it would please me if you left my life. Or, try helping people instead of hurting people.
Love,
Me
